Sometimes I just want to burn all my clothes
Sometimes I want to just burn all my clothes. I have sensory issues bc of fibro & being autistic, and sometimes I have body dysphoria issues bc I'm nb, and sometimes I just hate my clothes. Nothing's comfortable. I don't feel comfortable in anything. I feel like I don't look good in anything.
I was anorexic for most of middle school/high school, but I got help when I was 15 ish and I've been in recovery since. It was hard but I've been in a good place for a while and then this kind of blind sided me. Probably hasn't helped that I spent the last 2 years in scrubs day in/day out, and the meds I started recently mess with hunger sensations.
I think it's because I'm a size 14/16 now. I used to be 4 or so, then during earlier recovery a size 8 or so, then a few years later, a 12, and now I'm realizing I have a plus size body and I don't know how to dress it.
No one gets it. Everyone is pushing me (and plus size folks generally) to loose weight anyway. Anyone else had similar issues? What do you do?