bodydysphoria

Sometimes I want to just burn all my clothes. I have sensory issues bc of fibro & being autistic, and sometimes I have body dysphoria issues bc I'm nb, and sometimes I just hate my clothes. Nothing's comfortable. I don't feel comfortable in anything. I feel like I don't look good in anything.

I was anorexic for most of middle school/high school, but I got help when I was 15 ish and I've been in recovery since. It was hard but I've been in a good place for a while and then this kind of blind sided me. Probably hasn't helped that I spent the last 2 years in scrubs day in/day out, and the meds I started recently mess with hunger sensations.

I think it's because I'm a size 14/16 now. I used to be 4 or so, then during earlier recovery a size 8 or so, then a few years later, a 12, and now I'm realizing I have a plus size body and I don't know how to dress it.

No one gets it. Everyone is pushing me (and plus size folks generally) to loose weight anyway. Anyone else had similar issues? What do you do?

#EatingDisorder #EatingDisorderRecovery #bodydysphoria #BodyDysmorphia

So i have VERY recently realized that i want to physically transition. I have been openly out as being Non-binary for maybe 6 months, and within the last 3 months the thought of Starting T & getting top surgery makes me feel one step closer to who i really am. I wear a binder due to i have dysphoria issues lately

I have #BPD , and as many know, that comes with some self identity issue.
I made an appointment for my very first Hormone Replacement Therapy session for may 5th and like the day after i scheduled it, i started wondering if i will regret it in some or all forms. & starting feeling really confused. Which started to scare me.

Luckily i have this person whom is a potential partner that has been EXTREMELY supportive and give me the other me to be open and feel safe doing so, about all my feels, especially regarding this process. Btw i feel extremely blessed to have such a supportive person in my life.

I guess this is kind of. Vent post and a post wondering if anyone else (besides the one person i ran in to searching #Transgender ) feels the same way or similar.

Btw, please be easy, & dont invalidate my #bodydysphoria .& #GenderDysphoria