borderlinepersonalityawareness

a very different post from me, feeling very brave and wanting to share my story. BPD takes over my life. here I have attached two pictures, the first is on a bad day, a low mood, could not bring my self to get out of bed, get changed or brush my hair, no make up nothing. I spend the day in bed sobbing with no explanation- when it’s one of these days I push everything away, lock my self away and stay in my room hidden from the world and locked in my own head, trying to bare the feelings I’m faced with. the second picture is on a better day. hair done, make up on facing the world even though sometimes I’m still battling these https://thoughts.people often say to me “you don’t look like you have anything wrong with you” or “you don’t look like you have a mental illness”, but they only see how I look on the good days. some days are harder and always will be harder than others. I’m not saying I have dark disturbing thoughts every day because I don’t, sometimes I laugh and feel normal, but on the days like the first picture I will tell people I’m busy so I can stay on my own, I will feel exhausted from doing nothing, I will feel so upset for no reason, I won’t be able to control my feelings and I will not be able to think I’m ok. #BPD really does consume your emotions and it’s like a rollercoaster, up and down up and down but you can’t get off, you don’t know why but it just is this way, and managing them can be difficult. #BPD #borderlinepersoniltydisorder #MentalHealthAwareness #borderlinepersonalityawareness #bpdawareness #Borderlinedisorder