demotivation

I'm having so much difficulty finding the motivation to just get through life. I don't want to waste too much of your guys' time, so I'll just sum it up as best I can.

My first problem is that I moved to a new town and everything feels so foreign to me. I'm so scared and confused and sometimes it feels like I'm living on Mars...I just want even the tiniest bit of safety and familiarity.

My second is more of an existential problem. I guess I've just started to understand how temporary and pointless life is. I know there's happiness to be found in life, but like...why even bother when it can all be snatched away in an instant. Even if I try for long-term happiness, there wouldn't be any point. It'll all get just get taken away anyway when I die... #Aspergers #Depresssion #demotivation #existentialcrisis

I feel like I am spiralling downwards. I feel so demotivated. I feel evrything I have been giving my 110% is all failing around me. I have been trying ai hard this month to achieve the best version of myself and I just find whatever progress I make has just been going back to square 1 while I am still giving my 110%. i have actually been trying! i am not lying! i have been giving it my all! and nothing seems to be going right...even the little success have gone to square one. I feel defeated, demotivated, depressed, lack if energy, a failing reason to wake up in the morning, a failure. eveything is coming crumbling down around me and I lack the energy to holding everything up. I want to give up. I feel like I will never succeed in life and that I am failed cause. I don't want to feel this way. I am literally the person who motivates everyone around me (friends, family or strangers) what do you do when your motivator is itself demotivated. nothing anyone says is making me feel better. some people joke about me making excuses, the others blame it on superstition and that someone's evil eye is on me, others awkwardly stay quiet. urgh! I am frustrated! the goals i have or not unrealistic then why do I keep failing?
Please help me guys! give me tips on how to keep myself going! I am ready to do anything to not feel so shit!
#Depression #BipolarDepression #BodyDysmorphicDisorder #demotivation

I am pretty sure that most of you know exactly what am I talking about.

So one month ago I took a lot of my energy and I reached out to psychologist! I did not find him by myself. It is mental health center and it was recommended to me by someone else. In my country you reach out to psychologist and he analyses you whether you need psychotherapy or something else. Yesterday (after 2 sessions which took 1 month!!!) analysis was done and he told me that I need very intensive care and he would recommend me individual psychotherapy or daily group sessions BUT they dont have capacity so goodbye and good luck. Can you imagine how discouraging is for exhausted person to hear this? I basically wasted one month, I wasted energy for absolutely nothing.

Everything I do just fails. Why cant I get something positive? Like "Hey, this is your God speaking. I see you are exercising with physiotherapist for months and you put a lot of time, money and effort in your troubles. Here let me give you some improvement so you know you are on the right path" NO! All I got so far was new injuries or setbacks and I end up crying alone at home and my heart hurts.

Two years ago I never understood why would someone want to kill themself or why do people take drugs. Now when I think about life I get physically sick, I feel crushed and hopeless. When I think about death I feel peace and relieve.

For last two days I almost stopped praying because I just dont feet like it but atleast yesterday I found private psychotherapist who is close to my home. I texted him and who knows what happens next :)

#demotivation #Suicide #deathwish

I fell more and more demotivated to do the things I love. I started climbing in a gym a year and a half ago, to get fit and be more healthy, mentally and physically. It worked for a year but now I started feeling like I'm not good enough. Initially I went to the gym with a friend but this girl started making friends and doing more stuff with them and didn't include me ever. So I just started climbing alone. And it worked for a bit, I felt better without her, but now I'm feeling alone and demotivated. I just want her to call me to do climbing stuff together and present me to her friends.
#Depression