Entomophobia

“It’s just a bug, just kill it” I can’t do it. I am certainly sitting on my bed I have been staring at that bug to make sure it doesn’t move for an hour now. I can’t call anyone to come help me no one understands me. Before when I asked them to come help me kill the bug they always act so stressed by me. When I didn’t say good morning or something before I called for their help to come they will just complain about that the whole time. I’m sorry I really am but every time they do this I just feel really shity. I feel like I can’t ask for help or others around me will just get mad and stressed. No one understands me I’m late I’m very late but I can’t get out of my room because the bug is too close to the door. Once I get there it will jump on me and fly around I don’t even know if it flies but I’m scared. At last when I am very late I called for help and they came killed the bug and was mad and stressed and crabby at me for the rest of the day. I’m sorry but I don’t know what to do….. #bugs #Entomophobia

I have entomophobia and I can’t just “deal with it”! Every time I see a bug my heart just sinks and I start to have a weird pain in my stomach. If I see one I won’t be able to stop searching for more I won’t be able to stop moving and walking around to avoid bugs from getting on me. I cry I want to scream I feel childish I feel alone. Every time I see a bug I won’t be able to stay calm I can’t, I’m angry with myself. Every time I know deep down how much bigger I am compared to the bug I know the bug probably wont cause huge physical damage to me but I can’t stay calm I can’t kill it I can’t stop running. Every time it gets to summer all my friends and family are excited about it but I hate it. Every time I have my panic attacks my friends and family would just say deal with it or it’s not a big deal or sometimes give me that annoyed look then kill the bug. I always feel so not heart broken but just sad that they would react that way. I know I’m “childish” but I can’t help it. I feel the wind blowing my hair on to my face I can’t stop scratching my face I can’t stop searching for bugs. Sometimes I can bring myself to kill it if it’s a little mosquito but it kills me every time I do on the inside. My family says I’m crazy they tell me to stop but I can’t it’s not that simple. Sometimes I wish I would I have super power so the bugs in my 10•10 circle around me will disappear to somewhere also I know how bugs benefit the ecosystem and environment but I can’t handle them I can’t handle myself. People around me make me feel like crap and tell me I’ll get over it. I can’t I need help. Just please help me! I feel alone I feel childish I feel sad I’m sad….. I can’t go outside I can’t help you garden. I can’t just kill it. I can’t I don’t know what to do. If you guys have any similar experiences or any suggestions on what I should do please let me know. #Entomophobia #alone #helpless

Hi, my name is Cgibs2c. I'm here because I have a severe (undiagnosed) entomophobia and it seems to be getting worse as I get older.

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