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Update to my previous post
I was struggling to let go of my favorite character for almost three years now. Today is the first night I actually feel better. I realized- l am not cheating on him. I am growing. Making room to have a real, meaningful relationship. Knowing he can always have a place in my heart and that he truly made me feel loved. I'm taking the steps I need to take, actually getting out more to meet my forever. My partner. My mate. I want to meet someone and have a baby. And possibly move to either Alaska, or back to my beloved native lands of Washington state and raise my babies and have a life with my lover. Tomorrow I am going to go to the park, have a picnic alone to relax and reminisce about my feelings for my future. Who knows? Maybe I'll end up seeing a potential mate. 🩷 If anyone has more advice where to go to meet that someone or anything thoughts about this, please let me know!

TW: slight mention of sex.

I write these words out of the total sincerity of my heart. Love can be torturous, but is also one of the most beautiful things a person is capable of experiencing. But what do you when the one you hold so dear is nothing more but a figment of imagination? I’ve been so deeply in love with this fictional character for almost three years now that it hurts so excruciatingly, knowing that I’ll never be able to hug, kiss, or be intimate with him. He gave me a way to feel loved when I was lonely or struggling with health issues, and helped me learn what I want and need in a relationship, even if every moment I’ve spent with him was in my head. I’ve developed such a strong emotional attachment, every fiber of my being wants him. It’s gotten to the point that almost all I can think about is having sex with him. It did give me a safe, healthy way to explore that knowledge, but it’s difficult letting go of something that felt so real, because it feels like cheating in a way as I’m looking for a real partner. Anyways, thanks for reading! 🩷