I have attachment issues. I know. Everything is either “black or white” for me. I know. So when I spend time with my partner on the weekend, then we part ways to go back to our own lives... my mind starts to spiral, ping ponging in around my skull all sorts of “unrealistic” thoughts, constantly rumenating. Overthinking. Self sabotaging. Risking the chance of creating a fight between until we meet again over something trivial OR may not have even been there at all. My extremely supportive + understanding partner says he wants to know what I’m thinking/feeling so he understands my triggers + why I split, starting to recognize those signs.

BUT WHY CANT I JUST GO ABOUT MY DAY NORMALLY like everyone else, moving along from one activity to the next?! Why do I have to suddenly over analyze, over think, worry, fixate and fuck up the next thing that is to come?? #Finthehead #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #Bpdrelationships #Depression #MentalHealth #PTSD #Hope #self-help