I've had three serious relationships in my life, all of which ended due to my own #behaviors of #insecurity , #isolating  ,#exhaustion  , that stem from my illness. I also do not #trustmyself to recognize a #goodpartner who will be kind and supportive. My #pastpartners ranged between #cool  and #unsupportive to #verballyabusive . I was always drawn to partners with whom I felt like I needed to explain, justify or #improvemyself  . I would really like to share my life with someone but feel #paralyzedwithfear of making another #badchoice so have lived #safelyalone  for several years now.