I am finally getting traction in feeling better from SIBO. I am getting some energy back, but I just finished my second round of antibiotics (that cost $650 AFTER a manufacturer's coupon) and it's still going to be a long hard road with lots of doctors visits and trial and error.

This is coming at a time when I am also finally getting some much needed traction on the job search front. But the extra unemployment benefits ($300 a week) are running out at the end of the month and that means a huge squeeze on finances. I was using that money to pay for doctors since I have shit health insurance now, my cancer surgery (luckily had better insurance when that happened, but was still expensive), and just surviving on way less than what I used to make. That means I have to stop/delay my health journey because I can't afford to go to the doctor. Which means my job search will be harder. Harder to fight through the exhaustion. Harder to feel like it's not all pointless.

But I'm so CLOSE. So close to getting a job. I can feel it. I just need to hold out a bit longer.

Can someone tell me it's all going to be ok? That all of the shit I've gone through for the past 11 years will have been for something. That I deserve good things, maybe even great things to start happening to me again.

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