iamnotmyillness

I have never been happier a month ago! I started a new job, which my old job was completely awful. I now have the most amazing co-workers and my supervisors are amazing.
I started EMDR therapy and I feel like shit. I have an FMLA intermittent leave in place, so I don’t lose my job. I will be missing 4 days of work because of uncontrollable crying and panic attacks. My trauma is so deep and it has happened most of my life. I’m trying to cope and use all my skills.
Is this normal??? I feel like I’m taking a million steps backwards. I worry about how my new co-workers view me. As a lazy worker.
I’m seriously in pain. I turn into a different person. I’m usually soo responsible, but I couldn’t even cancel an appointment that I know I should have picked up the phone. That’s not like me. Only the panicked and depressed me. I hate feeling this way.
How do you explain to co-workers why you missed work? That gives me anxiety. My last job forced me to tell everyone about it. I don’t feel comfortable. I might just say that to people. One of my therapist’s said to treat these days like I am sick. Take care of YOU! I know I need to do that and I have been adding new things into my life that aren’t really new, but pushed away by this version of me.
I just need to know I am not alone in this. What do you do to help yourself get out of this?
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Today I remember that God is with me, even if I cannot feel Him. I am not alone. He promises to never leave or forsake me. I will believe His promises instead of my feelings.
#Goodmorning #MentalHealth #iamnotmypain #Notestoself #Godlovesyou #iamnotmyillness

Morning Reminder
You are a Masterpiece you are handpicked by God ☝🏼👑 you are Loved ❤️ you are a person of extreme value and significance.

To that one soul reading this I know you’re tired you’re fed up you’re so close to breaking but there’s strength within you even when you feel weak.
Keep fighting 💪🏼

I know you might be sad 😔 over there but I pray you are not but if you are I won’t tell you to have a good day . instead I advise you to simply have a day. Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes and don’t give up on yourself just yet. It’ll get better. Until then, have a day.

#iamnotmyillness #Depression #Goodmorning #Godlovesyou #MentalHealth #Notmypain

You might not be able to see where you’re headed, but I assure you, The Lord can. And he’s holding your hand. He’s breathing life into every aspect of your present and future. He’s shining His light even in the darkest corner of your mind. So hold tight to Him. Hold tight to his love ❤️, knowing that He will never leave you or forsake you, and because of Jesus, you are in His grip forever. No uncertainty, no broken dreams, and no fear of the future can keep you from Him. He is with you always, in all of this. Trust Him. Believe. And let Him gracefully lead you where you need to be.

Hope you all have a wonderful beautiful bless day in the Love of God❤️ God bless
#iamnotmyillness #Depression #Goodmorning #Godlovesyou #MentalHealth #Notmypain