iamproudofme

I just did something really good tonight that is something I’ve been anxious about for a long time. It was a terrifying thing, but I did it! I didn’t give into overwhelming fears and run away from it OR give myself the chance to freeze and avoid doing it. I reached out for support and I did the Terrifying Thing!
Lately I’ve felt like I’ve been drifting along in my life, not really living, but tonight I feel the most alive that I have in a long time, and I’m the most proud of myself that I have been in a really long time. What I did was, in reality, just something small that might not result in what I’m hoping for, but the end result of this isn’t the point. The point is that I’m finally turning around the fight with my anxiety, and I’m starting to do things despite my anxieties. The point is I’m rebuilding my life, and I’m starting to help myself do it. The point is I’m happy and proud of myself right now. The point is my anxiety did not win tonight. This was a small thing that I did, but it was a big step for me.

#Anxiety #stressed #scared #Depression #fightinganxiety #battlewithinmyself #battlewithanxiety #iamproudofme #Victory

Recently I've felt like I'm falling down the rabbit hole and constantly giving into the depression feelings and voice that says "just snooze the alarm, just keep snoozing, untill you've missed the bus and the train so that you start to panic about being mega late for work then if you go you will have to stay till 8 or 9, so just don't go, you are safe in your house where all is familiar." Not Today. I snoozed once then sat upright. And for me, THAT was the exact moment it shifted. There was no going back from that, I was up (almost). I am bloody proud of me today. I've done it. I am under no illusions that it will be the same come Monday. Everyday is different, as you well know. But today I am having this. I will take this as a win today and I will sit with it for as long as it makes me feel proud and happy and smile. Slowly the small wins might be able to build into something more. Eventually. #bedbattle #Anxiety #smallwins #iamproudofme #satup #smilingtoday