ijustwantsleep

I feel so lost and tired lately. I know the exhaustion is the depression starting again. The cold makes me feel worse. I fight for my children yet my head says they be better without me. I feel so hopeless lately, the self hate is strong and I don’t have many people I can be honest with. I just pretend I’m fine when I’m dying inside. I get angry at times because I just want to be happy again and I think I will never feel genuinely happy again. I feel like I have no purpose in this world and at times don’t even see the point of it all anyway. I truly hate feeling this way and just want to be happy again. I will keep fighting for my kids and hope it adventually turns into fighting for myself.