Insomnia

I saw a psychiatrist , the best I’ve ever had in my 30+ years of Major Depression with Anxiety disorder. He retired 1 year ago, it was difficult but I found a pHD nurse practitioner who continued the same medications for 6 months. Suddenly she decided it wasn’t good for me to be on Clonazepam 0,5 mg tid and Ambien 5 mg hs. I was doing well with some antidepressant adjustments over those 18 years.
She has tapered me off Ambien and I still have insomnia. She has tapered me down to Clonazepam twice a day, with resulting increased social anxiety, a terrible habit of picking the skin off my thumb until I have sores. I am fearful and anxious. Decreased appetite.reclusiveness to my apartment, no interterests…..I used to read, do crafts. Now all I am interested in is my 2 cats, and my Chihuahua. I was an advocate for wolves and animals that couldn speak for themselves, used to foster kittens and volunteer at an animal she,yet. I no longer drive because of decreased vision and lack of spatial awareness. I have no family living in Denver. I am at odds with my entire family because of the election. I live with my husband in a senior living retirement. My husband is very supportive but he is gone most of the day because he is very involved in activities here.
I need to find a psychiatrist who will allow me to stay on Clonazepam and Ambien, plus my Paxil and Wellbutrin….therapuetic medications that help me maintain some sort of normalcy in my depressed state.
I desperately need help. Her suggestion was to make friends, get out more…which I have tried. All of my best friends live in the Midwest or Northwest, including my two children an 3 grandchildren. Help me please.
#Depression #MajorDepression , #AnxietyDisorder
, #fearful ,#reclusuve ,

I have Secondary Erythromelalgia due to MS. I am desperate for sleep. I struggle to fall asleep and can’t tolerate the burning if the room is dark and silent! I have tried everything I can think of - relaxation technique, reading, audio books, music, tv on. Some nights I am awake all night. If I fall asleep I wake after two hours and the whole process starts again. Eventually I give up and go downstairs and start my day - often at 4.30am. I would be so grateful for any suggestions!
#Erythromelalgia #MultipleSclerosis #Insomnia #ChronicPain

I can’t sleep anymore. I want to sleep so badly and i want to feel peace in my faith and in God. My anxiety and depression just really make everything feel so hard and hopeless… i would really appreciate prayers, life is really feeling so overwhelming and i don’t know what to do to calm my mind and just be still, and trust in God. I want to with all my heart and i’m trying, it’s just so hard.. #Depression #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #Insomnia

me again! hows everyone doing? so im in the worst bout of insomnia ive ever had despite having it all my adult life. Really struggled last week but somehow have managed some positivity today. Forced myself out to a little market, got some lovely falafel (which i will pay the price for tonight with my insane allergies but sometimes you just need a god dam bloody treat!!!!), and a brilliant vintage furry coat thats a bit battered but will continue to be battered by me. Saw some lovely seaweed print art which im hoping will eventually lead to me drawing some of my own botanicals. Also got to feed the pigeons and seagulls as the market was 40km away and i have no pigeons or seagulls where i live. so i loved that, made me so happy watching them run around with their hilarious little bodies. My little dog has a big cyst on her tail and is going into irregular heat again despite not having a womb. She suffers just like i do. but i got her vet appointment sorted and got her some special treats and forced myself out on an extra walk to distract her. so despite the horribly scary insomnia, there has been things to hold onto. please share your struggles and hopes :)

hey all, just want to say you are not alone. ive been trying to envision the other sleepless people when I am up all night again and it is some comfort. So many great artists and writers barely slept a wink. Tracy Emin, Van Gogh, Vladamir Nabokov. Sometimes i wonder if the worlds absolute obsession with the perfect nights sleep is responsible for making us, the insomniacs, feel even worse about our condition. So i may not be the talented artist those guys are but i try when i can to create, i try to help others, i try to care for the people and animals in my life to the best of my limited ability. my intentions are kind. and i am sure yours are too. in the worst insomnia bout of my life (chronic lifelong insomniac here). Last week I had four nights without even a minute. every other night the same fractured, hallucinating hellscape. decades now of hypnagogic hallucinations, waking nightmares. But i remember the great painting of the night demon sat on an insomniac womans chest - the nightmare by Henry Fusili (the painter clearly suffering sleep paralysis), and i feel a kinship there. I hope you all can too. www.artsy.net/article/artsy-editorial-famous-artists-dealt-insomnia

hey all, just want to say you are not alone. ive been trying to envision the other sleepless people when I am up all night again and it is some comfort. So many great artists and writers barely slept a wink. Tracy Emin, Van Gogh, Vladamir Nabokov. Sometimes i wonder if the worlds absolute obsession with the perfect nights sleep is responsible for making us, the insomniacs, feel even worse about our condition. So i may not be the talented artist those guys are but i try when i can to create, i try to help others, i try to care for the people and animals in my life to the best of my limited ability. my intentions are kind. and i am sure yours are too. in the worst insomnia bout of my life (chronic lifelong insomniac here). Last week I had four nights without even a minute. every other night the same fractured, hallucinating hellscape. decades now of hypnagogic hallucinations, waking nightmares. But i remember the great painting of the night demon sat on an insomniac womans chest - the nightmare by Henry Fusili (the painter clearly suffering sleep paralysis), and i feel a kinship there. I hope you all can too. www.artsy.net/article/artsy-editorial-famous-artists-dealt-insomnia

hey all, just want to say you are not alone. ive been trying to envision the other sleepless people when I am up all night again and it is some comfort. So many great artists and writers barely slept a wink. Tracy Emin, Van Gogh, Vladamir Nabokov. Sometimes i wonder if the worlds absolute obsession with the perfect nights sleep is responsible for making us, the insomniacs, feel even worse about our condition. So i may not be the talented artist those guys are but i try when i can to create, i try to help others, i try to care for the people and animals in my life to the best of my limited ability. my intentions are kind. and i am sure yours are too. in the worst insomnia bout of my life (chronic lifelong insomniac here). Last week I had four nights without even a minute. every other night the same fractured, hallucinating hellscape. decades now of hypnagogic hallucinations, waking nightmares. But i remember the great painting of the night demon sat on an insomniac womans chest - the nightmare by Henry Fusili (the painter clearly suffering sleep paralysis), and i feel a kinship there. I hope you all can too. www.artsy.net/article/artsy-editorial-famous-artists-dealt-insomnia