I learned this lesson the hard way...I stopped caring for my mind. I stopped with a false sense of wellness.
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I stopped because life was good.
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My marriage was good, my kids were good, I'd just finished writing and publishing my first book...there was NOTHING telling me that I was about to make a life changing decision. There were NO red flags...or so I thought...
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In hindsight...the red flag was my ego...because there weren't any red flags my ego said go for it...stop doing what was prescribed to you...you don't need anyone's help...you got this...
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That started a chain of events that led to my demise. In no time at all...everything I had worked for over the last 10 years was destroyed...my marriage...my relationships...friendships...my image...my confidence...my self-esteem...EVERYTHING...was either destroyed or GREATLY damaged.
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My mental health or my mental well-being on a scale of 1 to 10...was a 0. I probably should've been hospitalized. I'm just speaking facts...not for sympathy...maybe a little for empathy...you don't know what you don't know...I had no clue what was coming...
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The positive of this breakdown is that I've become receptive to healing, recovery, and therapy. I'm learning how to ask for help. At times it's extremely difficult to hold my head up high from the embarrassment, shame, and guilt I feel and caused or brought unto others.
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I keep going because there are a few pair of eyes watching and wondering...is this BPD thing really real...is he going to blow up again...is he going to quit treatment...how will he bounce back...what will he say...what will he do...how will I know if he is better...is he just making excuses...he won't make it...he can't do it...don't trust him...
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I don't blame the skepticism. I welcome it. I'm a HUNT and we don't ever quit...
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