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I've dealt with storms on the horizon before. I've learned to see and predict when they are coming better. But lately, they don't seem to go away. They've stopped. Right above my head. Pouring a cold rain on me that only I can feel. Other days it's lightning and thunderclaps that only I can hear. It's a tornado ready touch down, that only I can see.

I want to cry out for help, to warn others of the dangerous path they've placed themselves in, merely by being near me. But instead all that I can do is shrug, and try to smile, at the few who bother to ask if I'm ok, and say 'I'm fine, just tired. Don't have much to say. Really.'

And I watch over their shoulder as the tornado recedes, for that moment. The lightning bolt barely misses their body, the rain diverts around them. Because if I were to tell them what storm was truly happening in my head, my heart, my body, they too would be in its path. And I can't do that to anyone. #Depression
#Anxiety
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