impulses

This doesn’t happen often enough to qualify as a disorder, but sometimes when my mental health is especially bad, I’ll get these impulses that are so strong it feels like compulsion. Like when I feel like I don’t have control, I’ll go and delete every app I have, and this time it felt like I couldn’t stop myself from doing it.

This is so frustrating and it’s hard to talk to anyone about it.

#ADHD #CombinedPresentation #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #impulses

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder I have been waking up terrified. Terrified of going to hell because I gave my dog away due to my illness. I have 2 cats and sometimes the responsibility overwhelms me. I go from wanting to be the perfect owner to not wanting any pets. The extremes kill me. I'm vegan and haunted by images of animals in slaughterhouses. I yell stop and practice gratitude. But the desire to run away from life is so strong. I can barely manage part time teaching and some days are exhausting trying to regulate my emotions. Only my faith in God keeps me going. Does anyone else feel so scared?