It’s almost my birthday and can’t help to feel this disgusting emptiness of why this pain never seems to end , I’ve been in rehab for a year and a half , I went out in July but my delusions , fears obsessions , paranoia and depression never go away . Wonder if I ever get to be genuinely happy . Another year , another year to keep fighting ... #BPD #birthdaysadness #Bipolar #tiredoffighting #whatsnext #inperu #Emptiness #strong