Rejection and BPD
I'm incredibly sad. My chest is constantly heavy and inside I feel only guilt. I am alone with these feelings because apparently my husband is mad at me. He is on a longer business trip and on Thursday we had an argument, since then he hasn't even read the messages and had nothing to do with me. I am lonely and I would just like to disappear, disappear from the world, I have nothing but loneliness and emptiness. Does this have BPD? is it supposed to be about this? It seems that even love feels like a burden and only causes melancholia. I don't jump for joy when I fall in love, but inside I feel joy, but at the same time guilt and fear. The fear comes from being afraid to trust and believe in love, to believe that someone sees good in me and fear that they will reject and hurt me. Do these feelings belong to BPD? Does anyone else have the same feelings? #BPD #Sadness #Loneliness #Emptiness