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After doing some reading and exhausting myself to the point of bed rot, what do I do with the information I have that catholic institutions were required to follow Ethical Religious Directives and violated several while violating me, but also not because I guess the potential of “conception” is more important?

I’d talk to an attorney but I feel like I did most of the work already, I’d just be getting someone to argue for me. Idk if I can handle this though, I feel like I need to check out.

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I hate when my depression kicks in and attacks my mind and heart. I want to scream and cry and let go but I don’t know how. The ones I love and cherish are the ones I want to be around. Yet those are the ones I shutdown from. I don’t know how. I don’t know why. And that just makes it all that much worse. #Depression #iwanttocry #IHateFeelingThisWay

So as I shared previously I saw my Psychiatrist to. And...I didn't expect anything less than being admitted. Not in a great place mentally, so it is most probably better for myself and those around me.

This is not my 1st time in a Psychiatric Hospital, but like the previous I truly hope this is the last. I'm in a different hospital than I was before so I need get used to how things work here. I hate being called by my last name just because "that's how we do things here". Maybe I am just over sensitive.

This place is cold and impersonal. Open plan room with 4 people sharing, I hate not having a bit of privacy. Closest thing to grass is the plastic roll outs in the smoking area and the closest tree or plant is beyond the fence in front of me.

I am going to try say 1 positive thing...At least the staff are kind of friendly

I am lonely and feel completely out of place. Let's see what's for dinner...
#MentalHealth #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar2 #scared
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