laundrydayistheworst

I am doubling over in pain right now. Was having a really good day which is a double edged sword. On these days I over exert myself. I tell myself stop, pace yourself. But I start cleaning, doing laundry, the works and then I’m paying for it laid out in bed for the next few days. And the worse thing about it is I live alone with my furbaby, with no help. This makes it even more frustrating. Recently I pinched a nerve and complicated the long list of issues with my back. I’m scared I’m going to wind up incapacitated and confined to a bed, in my room. As if being bipolar with ptsd isn’t enough. I think this year I’ve seen the worst of it with covid and being isolated, stuck indoors. Who wants to be stuck in bed for day’s on end with nothing but their mind on a constant loop of everything that’s wrong with their life? I’m surprised that I’m on this app the second time around and I’m actually feeling comfortable enough to share my thoughts and feelings without worrying about being judged. At least I’m finally getting the medical treatment I need. What with covid I haven’t been able to get pain management, physical therapy, or see my pcp. It’s been a nightmare to say the least. Anyways I just wanted to vent and see if it would help. I hate feeling like the world’s smallest violin is playing for me at times 😂😂😂and hate complaining. But lately it’s been overwhelming. I hope all of you had a great day and are taking it easy 💜🤓

Several things did not go well today or as planned. First, my biological niece now adopted daughter and an adult that hasn't spoken to me since her father divorced me, text me to say my ex showed her some paperwork showing her how evil my sister/ her mother was. Now she understands why I disliked my sister. Mothers don't allow their children to be abused.
She still doesn't want a relationship with me. She just wanted to apologize for hating the fact I disliked her mother. #shepraysformebutwantsnothingtodowithme
Adding to my day, I start to add a new list of Dr's and therapists to my healthcare team. That should be a good thing except coordinating and remembering all the appointments. My Dr and the new addition, the best in the state. #hopingforthebest
#laundrydayistheworst today I packed up and off to the laundromat for a couple hours, exhausted.
#newapartment moving through the application process I seem to meet all the requirements at least on paper. I had my accountant double check the financial requirement. I meet all their requirements, but they're trying to say my income is too low. A reply email was sent. #Disabled is that the real reason they're trying to decline my application. I hopefully find out more tomorrow. This apartment is perfect, first floor, washer and dryer in the unit and a garage. For less than $100 more a month and I get nothing here.
Now with a headache and empty stomach I will finally have super.
#hopeicangetsomesleep
Occupational and Physical therapy evaluations at the new place tomorrow, only an hour drive each way.

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