Longing

Just been wondering today if depression is some form of grief.

Does it stem from the loss of someone or something, or is it the grief of something or someone you will never have. My family have recently suffered a bereavement and because I am outside looking in, and have a long history of depression, it's just got me thinking a few things.

I know from experience that death can lead to grieving and in turn melt into depression. I also know from a childhood trauma I feel I grieve for what 'should' have been. So what if its possible something in life has impacted you to a point that you are depressed (grief stricken) because of that loss, whatever it may be? Could it then be that depression is some sort of process like the 5/6 stages of loss?

Does this mean anything to anyone or is it just verbal diarrhea on my part? #Depression #Grief #Loss #Longing #Lonliness #lostlife #Greiving

Tears for Fears
“everyone wants to rule the world”
Playing on the radio
my thought, “nope”
everyone doesn’t want to rule the world
maybe some do
most just want to be loved
To be held
Accepted, valued, cherished
- occasionally ravaged -
Desired & wanted

But Crazy thing ...
doubled over and around a
Black hole twisting my gut
sucking all good from my awareness ....
I don’t feel lovable
and people can’t see past the feel
of “black hole suck” emanating

The longing & need for connection is so great
it repels even the possibility

Maybe it would be easier to “want to rule the world”
Might even be more doable than finding love

#Longing #Love #Anxiety