Oh my jeez, the last 4 days have been totally amazing for me. I've felt in my heart & spirit the innocence that I did in high school. I've had the mental energy and been open & positive - or seems like a dream! If this is a manic episode I hope it never ends because so many things feel like I've captured all the bits of me I've lost that I have grieved over due to entering the grown up world. It happened gradually but it was a long, painful adjustment.
I can feel every pain from sciatica, back, neck, pancreatic pain. Migration pain. I feel it & process the pain. However there seems no emotional pain! The anxiety remains - lessened, but the depression, for now, seems to have gone.
My doctor recently (3 weeks ago) put me on #Trintellix added to #Effexor for depression. I don't know if this if this is the magical combination for me right this moment... Idk if it's my happiness in life & feeling free having recently gotten everything for my farm paid up and a new horse... My 15 month old grandson lives with me & my daughter & her man. I am blessed beyond all reason!
I've never felt so free. I have obstacles coming my way. There's quite a spend down for medicaid now, I lost food stamps & my daughter's were reduced. She doesn't understand so she's mad at me.
Thank you for reading of you've gotten this far. I wanted to share some joy bc I'm always complaining & wanted to share my JOY!!!!!! 🌻
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