Mack knows when I'm having a really difficult day, which is everyday. He loves hugs, cuddling & smiles like crazy..
Most days I hate my life & what it's become. I miss the old me.
I was supposed to have TILF surgery with revisions to a failed lumbar fusion adding more hardware, rods, bone grafts , 3 more discs & more. It's been cancelled 5 times in under 2 yrs due to so many other health problems/issues. I was finally ready, healthy, had my mindset for it in March. Then Covid19 came along cancelling it again. Last month it was going to happen then I got sick again with bronchitis. I feel as if something is telling me it's not the right time. I'm back to the drawing board. I started at the MS Center & next month we're going to discuss treatment options. But my last brain scans picked up another tumor. It also showed I had another TIA within the past 6 months, I thought it was anxiety attack or a MS hug. Nov 1999 I had a craniotomy to remove a brain tumor. Here I go again. I've been so depressed & anxiety is running wild. My mind isn't in the right place. I don't think I'm going to have the TILF surgery anytime soon or at all. I'm not ready for it. I'll just take my chances. 😒
#ChronicPain #Depression #Anxiety #MS #diabetic . #TIA 'S