mentalbrakedown

It wasn’t long after I was finally diagnosed and found out what was the cause for a lot of my issues I went into a terrible depression, and then mania... both going back and forth for a year, almost consecutively. I was put on an antidepressant immediately and later found out that can cause manic episodes. I’m wondering if me finding out and knowing that I was going to be this way forever was the root of my breakdown? My family doesn’t seem to believe me when I say that I wasn’t myself, because “you were still you, you still knew when you were wrong”... none of them remember who I was before it feels like. They remember all of the bad parts of me. In April of this year I finally got on the right medication and am more self aware. In July terrible things I had done came to light. I have no trust from my husband, no faith, no respect. He was the greatest husband before all of this. I just wish my family understood I never wanted to hurt them, I never seen my actions. When they were all brought out in July, I didn’t remember half of them. I don’t remember doing, saying, or being there for these things. It was like my entire life went up in flames. I didn’t know myself and I have nobody to lean on because I’ve hurt everyone I love and that loves me. #BipolarDisorder #Diagnosis #Mania #Depression #RapidCycling #mentalbrakedown

It wasn’t long after I was finally diagnosed and found out what was the cause for a lot of my issues I went into a terrible depression, and then mania... both going back and forth for a year, almost consecutively. I was put on an antidepressant immediately and later found out that can cause manic episodes. I’m wondering if me finding out and knowing that I was going to be this way forever was the root of my breakdown? My family doesn’t seem to believe me when I say that I wasn’t myself, because “you were still you, you still knew when you were wrong”... none of them remember who I was before it feels like. They remember all of the bad parts of me. In April of this year I finally got on the right medication and am more self aware. In July terrible things I had done came to light. I have no trust from my husband, no faith, no respect. He was the greatest husband before all of this. I just wish my family understood I never wanted to hurt them, I never seen my actions. When they were all brought out in July, I didn’t remember half of them. I don’t remember doing, saying, or being there for these things. It was like my entire life went up in flames. I didn’t know myself and I have nobody to lean on because I’ve hurt everyone I love and that loves me. #BipolarDisorder #Diagnosis #Mania #Depression #RapidCycling #mentalbrakedown

I always wonder is there anyone with Same condition of mine.I'm really afraid to sleep in daylight.not bkz of dreams .after my daylight sleep when I woke up ..I felt very low.I can't do anything for an hour..mentally broken.without any reason I used to cry.after sometimes I wonder what happened to me that time!!
#sleepingproblem #Fear #mentalbrakedown