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I want to educate more people about a specific form of OCD that I've dealt with for the last 10 years of my life (since I was around fourteen). I would also love for anyone who has experienced this to give it a like or a comment.

Since 8th grade, up until a few months ago (age 23), I've struggled with "homosexual OCD" or "sexual orientation ". For years I had intrusive thoughts and doubts about my sexuality. It was mainly in the form of "what if I'm gay/bisexual?" but eventually shifted into "what if I'm asexual?" There's nothing wrong with being gay or asexual, but for me that wasn't the issue. The issue was that I COULDNT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. The thoughts were so intrusive and constant, with my compulsions of touching, tapping and knocking, as well as searching the internet for reassurance. I was tapping 200x a day at its peak severity when I was 19, and the obsessive thoughts and sexual images would even enter my dreams. I could never escape, that was, until I did exposure therapy (ERP). Exposure therapy (and medication for a few years) saved my life. It's hard to describe this type of to those who've never had it. It's essentially constant doubting and questioning. That's how I'd describe it.

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