paranoia

Today it was confirmed I had paranoia all my life. After 20 years of living in agony of the unknown demon, misery of the pain, going mad every now and then, god gave me my closure today. #BPD #Paranoia

I know that they are both symptoms of #PTSD but they seem to be getting in the way recently. It's little things that startle me not to mention lesser known things like people being upset with me. When triggered I tend to react strongly (and sometimes hurt someone in the process). In DBT therapy I am learning to regulate my emotions but I feel like that goes out the window when I'm triggered. I was diagnosed with #PTSD in 2019 and I take meds for the nightmares but I don't think that does much for being easily startled and reacting strongly. Does anyone else struggle like this?

#Trauma #PTSD #Abuse #AbuseSurvivors

*Not to mention the paranoia that comes on sometimes if I'm really anxious. That just makes things worse. #Anxiety #Paranoia

My anxiety induces paranoia. Does anyone else deal with this? #Paranoia #BipolarDisorder #PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety or is it just #Psychosis ?

Have you ever had someone trigger you intentionally to see how you react? Maybe this is just in my head. But I’m very reactive. So, for example, someone says something triggering, I flinch. And what I find is some people suddenly start saying related things more and more and more. And I’ll catch them watching me sometimes. And I think they are trying to see if my reaction is tied to their comments. I think they are curious for whatever reason.

But it’s awful to experience. I don’t want attention brought to this. The more they do it the more amped up my nervous system is and the harder it is to be normal. And I know what they are doing. But at the same time I feel paranoid because would someone really do this? They are likely just having a normal discussion and the ptsd is causing my paranoia to kick in because I was triggered. #PTSD #Paranoia

I am trying to understand the occurrences I’ve been having. I feel as if people are constantly speaking badly about me and it’s becoming harder and harder to be in social situations.

It’s stems from being immersed in actual occurrences.