Sometimes I have a few days of beautiful sunshine and clear skies and then PTSD just crashed down like a rainy day and all I can see are stormy clouds. #mentalhealthissuesarereal #PTSD
#TraumaSurvivors #mixedFeelings
I was trying to boost my confidence today by doing little things that made me feel better and then I decided to look at the DMV website to look at updates. Due to Covid-19, my behind the wheel test was postponed because of rises in cases. I knew that it would be rescheduled and I wanted to look at which date it would be on. Of course, I felt excited because I had another chance to take this test, but an old feeling came over me that I’ve felt all too often: feeling like an inconvenience. I could switch the date, but who knows when things will get shutdown again. The other thing is that getting someone to go with me. My mom when with me for the last few times. The last time was awful because although I knew what my mistakes were and I was able to accept them, I felt like I was an annoyance for one, failing the test a second time, and two, I felt like I was an inconvenience because she had to take off work early to take me to the DMV. I’ve gotten constructive feedback from others about things like this, but when it comes from her, it hurts a lot. I’ve often wondered why I’m able to take things from other people, but when I tell my mom on how I want to deal with certain things, it comes off as if she’s trying to be my therapist (when I already have one). It’s a solid reason why I try to do things on my own if I can do it. Sometimes I feel like she has expectations on how I’m supposed to heal from my trauma and she is part of the reason I have this trauma that I’m trying to heal. I know I got some sorting out to do, I hope things will get figured out eventually. #MentalHealth #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Trauma #feelings #mixedFeelings #goals
Hi Mighty friends,
Got something weighing a bit on my mind lately... So I thought I’d share and ask for some words of wisdom :)
In late July, I was forced to resign from my job at Chick-Fil-A because of my declining physical health. I was lowkey devastated. When I started that job in December, I was so excited - I worked full time and loved just about every minute of it.
But my body heqqin hates me. Following my resignation, I felt totally stuck, broken, and depressed. I was already a college dropout at 19 (medical withdrawal) and now I couldn’t even hold a job.
Fast foward to the present, I am starting my new job working at a preschool tomorrow. And I guess I’m happy... but I’m also kind of terrified. Sure, it will require less physical exertion, but what if I still can’t handle it? What if I fail at yet another thing?
I thought I was super ready get unstuck and move onward. But now I’m doubting myself and my ability to function. What should I do?
#HEDS #MDD #GAD ##PanicD /O #OCD #ADHD #WorkingMemoryDeficit
I currently have been feeling a lot of emotions lately that I can’t explain to others around me or the people who care about me. I’m seeing myself distancing from others, not wanting to talk to anyone, getting annoyed from everything and everyone for absolutely no reason.
A lot of people around me want to support and help me but the problem is I don’t know what is going on with myself to ask for help.
Someone who I have been talking to recently and is interested in getting to know me, and we have. He told me today “have you talked to your therapist about that?” And I just got confused because therapy doesn’t solve everything neither antidepressants can. He told me he’s there if I need him and he can support me in any way, I asked, like what? He replied: if you ever want to talk about it I will definitely listen and be here for you.
I don’t know how to explain what I’m feeling, I don’t even know what I’m feeling but I know I’m not feeling myself.
I currently have been feeling a lot of emotions lately that I can’t explain to others around me or the people who care about me. I’m seeing myself distancing from others, not wanting to talk to anyone, getting annoyed from everything and everyone for absolutely no reason.
A lot of people around me want to support and help me but the problem is I don’t know what is going on with myself to ask for help.
Someone who I have been talking to recently and is interested in getting to know me, and we have. He told me today “have you talked to your therapist about that?” And I just got confused because therapy doesn’t solve everything neither antidepressants can. He told me he’s there if I need him and he can support me in any way, I asked, like what? He replied: if you ever want to talk about it I will definitely listen and be here for you.
I don’t know how to explain what I’m feeling, I don’t even know what I’m feeling but I know I’m not feeling myself.
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