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I happened upon my session notes, one day, while looking up information on MyChart. I found the notes to inaccurately describe what I was trying to portray to my therapist. Since then, I have looked up additional notes just to see how accurate they are. I feel like my therapist may be trying to make our sessions sound more productive than they actually are. It feels very invalidating.

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I just wanted to enjoy my son's wedding. I took all the necessary steps, I crossed all the t's dotted all the I's and she / I still stole most of the the
Day from me. Why did I expect, protect, beg and expect differently 😔

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#TraumaSurvivors feeling anxious . I’ve actually enjoyed this time( one week) that he’s been gone. I’ve slept through the night for the first time in a long time. I didn’t realize how lonely and also harassed I’ve been. I wanted him to move out and even said I would help him find a place. His response was to put himself in the unit under the guise of being suicdal. I just know he would never do that or even feel that way. It’s emotional manipulation, but fortunately it’s not working. But he won’t budge. My therapist talked to me about radical acceptance. I’m going to move on in my life, doing therapy, meditating, making new friends with healthy boundaries and positive vibes. Going to pick him up now. Wish me luck.

As l read the different stories on splitting l realized that some of the issues l dealt with in my relationships may have been a direct result of the negative ways in which l looked at what was being done or said to me. In times past l wouldn't have wanted to share this because of the shame l always attach to myself when l make a mistake but not anymore. I'm owning where l have gotten wrong and at the same time affirming that l am still worthy of being loved.

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