So, I recently got rid of all my non. friends, leaving me alone ,but what truly caused my state of loneliness was the deaths of both of my little brothers. I will always be. Alone, cause those holes cant be filled. Yet, thanks to my CPTSD I will never be alone! The memories and the screaming are always there. So are my so called demons, the rage, the hurt, the loathing. I am alone, yet never alone. And I hate it.