I recently lost someone who was very special to me and I don’t really know how to handle the pain. I feel like I’m falling back into a depression. The sadness is always present, and so is the guilt… #Depression #Grief #Sadness #Pain #missing
There are two days especially that are hardest for the family of a missing person — the day they disappeared and their birthday. This is unlike mourning a death. This is like hope being assaulted by fear every moment of the day. Psychologists call this “Disenfranchised Grief.” They advise a ritual of letting go. I thought about that a lot but realized that felt like a betrayal. So I have spent the past five years learning how to build hope and to dismiss fear.
So, if there are others with missing loved ones who will join me on this prayer journey, I will make a promise. Those two days, their birthday and the day their loved one went missing, will be dedicated to their loved one and their family. Every year. One thing that helps immeasurably on those days is connection.
The idea that many people would be saying a prayer for our Benjamin on his birthday (February 21st) and on the day he disappeared (March 2nd) fills me with gratitude. I hope it will help other families too.
Conclusion: The prayers on my site will be a daily paragraph. If you have a suggestion for a prayer, let me know. If you wish prayer for yourself or a loved one or a specific part of the world, or anything, let me know. This is for all of us.
Tizz O'Toole (pen name Niki Flow)
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A girl from my school ran away or is missing. Please call if you see her. The number is (603) 942-9101
Ben and Snowball my sweet furbabies who passed over this year. You took chunks of my heart with you! I think of you constantly and miss you more and more!! Snowball I especially miss your hugs and cuddles. Ben I miss your MaMa meow but mostly how you never left my side when I needed you! I don’t know if I will ever get over missing you both!
Missing my daughter so much. She was murdered this past summer. Six months pregnant with twins. I’m still so devastated. I miss her warm embrace and her goofy laugh. She was beautiful. Please say one for me.
Missing my daughter so much. She was murdered this past summer. Six months pregnant with twins. I’m still so devastated. I miss her warm embrace and her goofy laugh. She was beautiful. Please say one for me.
So, I recently got rid of all my non. friends, leaving me alone ,but what truly caused my state of loneliness was the deaths of both of my little brothers. I will always be. Alone, cause those holes cant be filled. Yet, thanks to my CPTSD I will never be alone! The memories and the screaming are always there. So are my so called demons, the rage, the hurt, the loathing. I am alone, yet never alone. And I hate it.
im in love with someone. i check on her every moment on whatsapp and it gives me hope.
i dont know till when i continue like this. she was the one who inspired me and gave me hand so that i could do better in college. but i lost her with my aggressive attitude and wrong sayings, on my first manic episode that was diagnosed together with psychosis.
As she didnt catchup and wasnt interested, and as she blocked me on media, I couldnt talk to her because of the lack of confidence.
After two years, i still seeking a way to reconnect. and as i respect myself, i dont take any action.
i dont have any therapist.. im on my chronic depression mood and there is no friend, no relationship. so i thaught i might say it here . so someone might care.
#BipolarDepression #missing #Loneliness
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