I can't believe it's been a year. A year since that night. I feel so much pain I can't make sense of anything else; loss, grief, guilt. Your death has made you more a part of my life...how is that fair? I've been there, I've felt that pain, I've wanted it all to be over and I've thought about how I would do it. Does that bring us closer? Does that make it hurt more? Because I understand, but I'm still here? I made it, I didn't jump...

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