outofreality

Time is passing by,
I see the clock change,
Suddenly, I become aware of time,
I LOOK,
There is DARKNESS OUTSIDE,
there is LIGHT,
My mom and dad are UP.
LIGHTS are ON.
LIGHTS are OFF.
My parents are EATING.
THEY are LEAVING the house- church I guess… This EBBING AND FLOWING OF TIME, is NOT as a CLOCK hand, STEADILY clicks.
IT happens SUDDENLY, ERRATICALLY, with NO, RHYME or REASON.
Time is so DREAMY, so DISTORTED,
no matter, what EVENTS ARE AT PLAY.
I think to LOOK UP,
I see…. all my BEDROOM LIGHTS ON,
as I WORK, on the task at hand,
I LOOK OUTSIDE,
AND SEE DARKNESS, the clock says 3AM!
I walk into, the rest of the HOUSE,
EVERY LIGHT IS OFF!
I could have SWORN WE JUST ATE LUNCH,
WHERE did everyone GO?
What happened to the SUN?
What happened to the CLOCK?
Is this an ILLUSION?
or is it a TRICK of the MIND?
I NEVER really KNOW anymore,
They ALWAYS prove ME WRONG!
I could ACCUSE, conspiracy,
But, how does one, CONSPIRE,
with DAY AND NIGHT HERSELF?
I will NOT APPROACH, the subject,
But, I am growing weary, and dazed……
By TIME…SHIFTING….on ..ME!
Leaving me… UNSURE….and CONFUSED!….
DAY, is not separated from NIGHT.
I do NOT know when it TIME to EAT.
I do NOT know when to SLEEP.
I do NOT know the SEPARATION of DAYS….
WHETHER or not I I have showered…
OR done my ADL’s…
I think the,
TIME CONTINUUM, HAS BEEN WARPED! #triggered #CPTSD #outofreality #distortedtime #Confusion

#MentalHealth #Depression #help #outofreality