I’ve been so anxious I can’t sleep even though I’m tired. I’ve read other strategies and I am currently trying nature sounds. Do you have any additional coping skills that could help me? Thanks in advance.
#Anxiety #PTSD #Insomnia #AbuseSurvivors #checkin #triggered
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In my twenties, I experienced a total of 7 sexual traumas, from sexual assault, to molestation, to #Daterape . I was also drinking heavily at the time. Now, I’ve been married almost 11 years, have cut down my #Drinking (no drunkenness), but randomly I get #triggered , and it’s so bad I can’t let my husband touch me past anything but a hug. One time, it took a full year to get over one of these spells. My problem is, I don’t know what sets me off! Sometimes I’ll get creeped out by a strange person, or overhear conversations, but nothing concrete. Any suggestions? Should I try EMDR (again- I tried it a few sessions, but maybe the therapist wasn’t the right fit)?
Sorry this was so long. For context, I am a 37 yr old straight female married to a man. All assaults were perpetrated by men. None were caught or prosecuted. No Justice. #MeToo
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So I went through the trouble of telling my sexual abuse story. And the mighty immediately deleted it because of a misunderstanding of my experiences. My uncle attempted to sol*ci* child p**n of me at age 12. The mighty saw these words and apparently assumed I was trying to do that. Ugh. I can’t even tell my story????? So frustrating!!! That was so triggering and painful to right! I poured my soul out! 🤬 so now I’m over here crawling in my skin for nothing???? UGH!!!!
#CPTSD #PTSD #Trauma #Abuse #ChildAbuse #SexualAbuse #ChildSexualAbuse #TheMighty #triggered
I thought this intake call would be a quick med history review, but it ended up being a full hour including being asked to state the method of $uicide I had been thinking of. I had never said that out loud to anyone and now it is just more real in my mind. This call was on Thursday and seriously affected my performance at work as well as my sleep patterns.
If you saw my last post, you know that I was already feeling super stressed at work because my boss was away sick again. I feel like I made some poor decisions and I couldn't retain information that clients told me. I am not looking forward to going into work today and having my boss bring up some of those decisions. Unfortunately, I can't take a day off this week, though, because it is a super busy all-hands-on deck kind of week.
This psychiatrist appointment (mid-July) sure better be worth all of this...
#CheckInWithMe #triggered #Psychiatrist #Work #SuicidalThoughts #Depression #Anxiety #Trauma #MentalHealth
For me, it’s always about feeling helpless. Sometimes it’s about feeling trapped too. But on my worst days, it’s like BINGO and I’ve got the whole row. The best I can do is give myself grace in those moments. I hope you will give yourself a little bit too.
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#CPTSD #PTSD #AnxietyAttack #Anxiety #triggered #feelings #Grace #findinghope #MyCondition #bingo #Bekindtoyourself #ItsOK #helpless #Trapped #fearful #giveyourselfgrace #progress #Trauma #AnxietyTriggers #triggers
okay. I have spent a little bit of time reading some posts here and adding a few comments tonight. but the pain from others has triggered me. I hope no one minds if I log out now. I wonder if others feel this way when they are logged on this page sometimes.
The son of actress and director, Regina King's son died by suicide. My heart cracked as though I knew him personally. He must have been in so much pain. While thinking of his pain, I was reminded of my own. I'm okay. It's just a sad day. I pray for Ms King as I also pray for those who read this post. Peace. Blessings. Love. Light.
so I've been on this app for 24hrs and I already had a man message me trying to bully and pressure me into sending him body pics of myself. Another request I blocked was from a man who was one person in his profile picture one moment and then suddenly a different person drastically the next time I looked. Are there a lot of scammers on this app?? I joined this app to have a safe space. I imagine ppl prey on vulnerable people on this app... which is very disheartening. I definitely don't want to be harassed or preyed upon like this is a dating app or something.. which isn't ok on a dating app either.. this man was telling me his wife died and he might lose his kids to repeatedly trying to make me feel like I owed him a picture of my body which was extremely triggering.. I did block an report him. I hope he doesn't do this to anyone else on here who may fall into his pressuring.. his choice in words were very manipulative. I'm feeling defeated and hopeless. I've been extremely reclusive no social media or anything and anytime I put myself out there online I start losing faith in humanity... but I am greatful for the positive interactions on here. I have a consult with for a potential new therapist tomorrow and I definitely did not need the messages I received tonight :(
When I’m super triggered or want to escape my emotions I automatically go to sex. So lately I’ve been having a really hard time uo and down constantly and I bknetly just wanted to feel something, so I hooked up with this guy and I still don’t feel anything and now I’m triggered to do it all over again. Am I just a whore? I’m so sad. I just want everything to stop. I just want to get high and go away.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #hypersexual #sad #Depression #triggered #cycle
I just installed a new home security system. I'm trying it out. I just tested the "PANIC" button I placed in my bedroom, the alarm sounded, I entered my code, and once the system was disarmed, "Everything is OK" showed up on my phone screen.
I had no idea how not okay I was until I read those words, and immediately burst into tears. Because everything is NOT okay. I am not okay.
This summer, in June, I started working in the film industry. The job more or less fell into my lap. I've tried to explain to people what it's been like- it's been one of the most incredible experiences I've ever had. And it's also been like a tornado 🌪 . Everything has been going SOOOO fast. I've worked on 9 movies/TV shows in 2 months. It's been insane. I haven't been able to find a balance- everything is racing and NOW! NOW! NOW! I've been driving all over the state and my average work day has been 13 hours (try filming a western, in the actual desert, for 4 days in a row and it takes an hour and a half to get there and you have to be there by 5:30am and you spend maybe 9 or 10 FULL hours in the 100° sun then have to drive 1.5 hours home in pitch black and turn around and do it again a few hours later) and even though I've been enjoying it, I've been under an indescribable amount of pressure. It's a high pressure industry. When I'm on set I'm having a blast, and it's not until I get home that I realize: HOLY SH*T. I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT JUST HAPPENED. It's been more than overwhelming. Like, I'm having a hard time keeping up with... myself. Almost like a manic episode.
I live with #Depression #Bipolar2Disorder #CPTSD #Anxiety disorder and #PMDD , to name a few mental health issues. I haven't had time to feel any of this. I've started burning out a bit, so I'm working less, and it's all catching up to me.
This past week has been particularly difficult- friendship stuff, I had to rehome my dog, get my car fixed, file a grievance with a hospital, health issues, among other things. I've been feeling increasingly unsafe- the crime rate is rising where I live, and it was already extremely high. I can't put my finger on why I feel more unsafe. I chalked it up to my possibly feeling more vulnerable, but I talked to my neighbor and he said he's been feeling the same way.
I'm planning on moving to another part of town, but I can't right at this moment, so I got this security system in the interim.
I can feel the #Depression rolling in like a dark cloud. I can feel myself seizing up with #Anxiety . I've started having #Nightmares again. Started experiencing emotional #Flashbacks again. I feel #triggered most of the time. I don't believe these things ever went away, I think there was just so much going on I wasn't consciously aware of them. I have to be honest and say I knew this would happen. I knew that feeling "happy" like I was was an illusion, and my glass castle would come crashing down.
So, I tested my panic button. And I'm now keenly aware:
Everything is NOT OK.
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