triggered

I've been talking to a guy for a while know, and we're meeting up this weekend. He's started asking questions about why I'm on #Disability , what my #Bipolar (the only thing I've been open about yet) affects me and would affect us if we ended up dating. How and when do I open up about all the other stuff? I don't wanna #Trauma dump on him, but some of it really needs to be told so he can understand why I am the way I am. It's not something I'll be able to, or want to, hide. My #Trichotillomania gets bad when I'm #depressed , #anxious or get #triggered . Since I've been in a #depressive episode for a really long time now and struggle a lot with #SuicidalIdeation and thoughts about #Selfharm it's important he knows some stuff. I've been in #SelfharmRecovery for almost a year and a half and my scars are bad and ugly. I know he'll ask questions, and I have no clue how to open up to him as I barely know the guy.. Do you guys have some tips?

Everything has me on edge. The fan in the bathroom, noise of the fridge, people in different rooms, all feel like they are screaming at me, 2inches from my face.

And I'm irritable, spacing at the kids, avoiding eye contact, shut down emotiona.

And I'm flaring, endometriosis pain, headache, skin on fire.

And what triggered this?
A massage and acupressure facial, booked to attempt self care, has sent my senses and responses wild. I feel vulnerability and upset, broken open somehow.

I'm on a therapy journey, an hour a week feels so slow and I have to zip it all up in-between sessions

#Trauma #Hypervigilance #OnEdge #triggered

I’ve been so anxious I can’t sleep even though I’m tired. I’ve read other strategies and I am currently trying nature sounds. Do you have any additional coping skills that could help me? Thanks in advance.

#Anxiety #PTSD #Insomnia #AbuseSurvivors #checkin #triggered

In my twenties, I experienced a total of 7 sexual traumas, from sexual assault, to molestation, to #Daterape . I was also drinking heavily at the time. Now, I’ve been married almost 11 years, have cut down my #Drinking (no drunkenness), but randomly I get #triggered , and it’s so bad I can’t let my husband touch me past anything but a hug. One time, it took a full year to get over one of these spells. My problem is, I don’t know what sets me off! Sometimes I’ll get creeped out by a strange person, or overhear conversations, but nothing concrete. Any suggestions? Should I try EMDR (again- I tried it a few sessions, but maybe the therapist wasn’t the right fit)?
Sorry this was so long. For context, I am a 37 yr old straight female married to a man. All assaults were perpetrated by men. None were caught or prosecuted. No Justice. #MeToo

So I went through the trouble of telling my sexual abuse story. And the mighty immediately deleted it because of a misunderstanding of my experiences. My uncle attempted to sol*ci* child p**n of me at age 12. The mighty saw these words and apparently assumed I was trying to do that. Ugh. I can’t even tell my story????? So frustrating!!! That was so triggering and painful to right! I poured my soul out! 🤬 so now I’m over here crawling in my skin for nothing???? UGH!!!!

#CPTSD #PTSD #Trauma #Abuse #ChildAbuse #SexualAbuse #ChildSexualAbuse #TheMighty #triggered

I thought this intake call would be a quick med history review, but it ended up being a full hour including being asked to state the method of $uicide I had been thinking of. I had never said that out loud to anyone and now it is just more real in my mind. This call was on Thursday and seriously affected my performance at work as well as my sleep patterns.

If you saw my last post, you know that I was already feeling super stressed at work because my boss was away sick again. I feel like I made some poor decisions and I couldn't retain information that clients told me. I am not looking forward to going into work today and having my boss bring up some of those decisions. Unfortunately, I can't take a day off this week, though, because it is a super busy all-hands-on deck kind of week.

This psychiatrist appointment (mid-July) sure better be worth all of this...

#CheckInWithMe #triggered #Psychiatrist #Work #SuicidalThoughts #Depression #Anxiety #Trauma #MentalHealth

okay. I have spent a little bit of time reading some posts here and adding a few comments tonight. but the pain from others has triggered me. I hope no one minds if I log out now. I wonder if others feel this way when they are logged on this page sometimes.

The son of actress and director, Regina King's son died by suicide. My heart cracked as though I knew him personally. He must have been in so much pain. While thinking of his pain, I was reminded of my own. I'm okay. It's just a sad day. I pray for Ms King as I also pray for those who read this post. Peace. Blessings. Love. Light.