Despite doing everything I want (I died my hair purple) and the freedom of leaving a DV relationship... I feel so lonely it's hurting on the inside. I so badly want to be held and hugged to sleep... I just want to feel safe again and not just know it in my head.... I wanna stop hurting.... I want the flashbacks to stop.. I want the negativiy in my head to stop..... I just would like someone here who gets me.... I feel so alone in this world.... I feel liklike a failure anand that I'm not worthy..... #alone #paincattack