Reflecting

Well, it’s mid-week and my partner leaves on another work trip tomorrow. It’d be an understatement if I said my mental health was not-so great as of late, especially since January, especially this past week. On top of this, I think I’ve caught the common cold as well, which I know to many isn’t a big deal, but I’m also sure many would agree can exasperate your mental health struggles—especially OCD, for example. Anyway, for context: I went to the ER this week, got told I was “all good” and not admittable (to the inpatient program), literally because I told them I have no substance issues and likely because I had a psychiatrist/therapist team already (which I am incredibly grateful for, don’t get me wrong). It was, overall, a very NOT helpful experience whilst being in crisis, though long story short I had one of my healthcare practitioners intervene a few days later and I believe I will be getting into a day hospital program. Bleh. Chaotic week for a brain in chaos.
I’m not sure where I’m going with this post exactly. Maybe I needed to vent, perhaps I’d appreciate tips or even just support in the upcoming few days as I navigate life without my immediate support (my partner).
I am a 35 year old female who lives with Major Depressive Disorder, GAD, OCD, PMDD and some other fun physical ailments like hormonal migraines and sleep apnea. While I come and go from this platform, I have always enjoyed the sense of community I feel here!
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Feel like I need to do 'something' outside of the house every day, but not wanting to overdo it

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So the end of the year is drawing close and I find myself sitting here here reflecting. My rational mind knows I’ve done all I can this year and takes lessons BUT the BPD brain screams at me “another year wasted”

My own battle inside my head, can you relate?

I’m contemplating what I need most in 2020

My conclusion Self-love Self-care and Self-kindness

What do you need most?