I’m really struggling. I’m so burnt out at my current job and every time I try to talk to my mom who’s apart of my support team keeps shutting me down. I’ve had a number of very positive interviews lately but have been super discouraged due to being shut down repeatedly.
A little backstory. I’ve been a custodian/janitor since college. It’s actually how I was able to afford school, and then due to the pandemic I just kept finding decent paying positions in this field. However, in my most recent job I’ve had nothing but entitled people who just treat us like maids. There is a difference between a custodian and a maid believe it or not and due to this school districts attitude towards the cleaning staff I’ve reached my limit with this position and honestly just wanna start over someplace new that has nothing, and I mean nothing, to do with cleaning. I’ve also been given the smallest area of all of my coworkers so I’m constantly finishing my tasks early and have lots of downtime, despite constantly asking for more tasks or even slowing down. I’ve been pushed to my physical limit and have honestly contemplated suicide due to the lack of care in this job. They also continue to belittle us and take things away.
However all but my mom has been supportive of this self discovery. She just goes on and on about insurance. I understand and know I can’t just up and quite my job. Loads of people search for new opportunities while employed. I also really wanna go back to school for art therapy since I truthfully believe I wasn’t put on this earth to just clean but do something more meaningful with the talent I’ve been given.
Thanks for reading and letting me vent my frustration out.
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