relasped

I started using when I was 14 I'm 35 now. I used to do once in a while. Well April 2017 went to jail for 1st time for possession, and controlled substance. When I got released I had my mind set I'm done for good. Well about 2 1/2 yrs into my sobriety my husband decides he wants to use & I'm guessing he didn't like me being sober and bettering myself. So about Oct 2019 took my 1st hit and that was it. Since started using again its like I can't stop I dnt get it. I've tried inpatient, group support, AA& NA. And nothing works. I'm lost for words
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