Shameless

I hate shameless mostly because my mom reminds me of a mix between frank and Monica #Toxic

#Shameless #Stillalive
The truth is I like to keep this part of my life private, since it’s IBD awareness week I just decided to share my story. Most people live in fear of some terrible event changing their lives. For the chronically ill people just like me, this terrible event already happened. My life changed dramatically as soon as I was diagnosed with this disease at a very young age. My childhood been f*** up, I was being hospitalized almost every month, I skipped school I didn’t have many friends. There’s a lot of things I used to love to do but I couldn’t do anymore. But despite how alone I was I never let anyone know that I’m this sick, because people as soon as they hear the word “sick” they will start feeling sorry for you. Never feel sorry for me! I’m not someone you should feel sorry for, of course I didn’t choose this illness, maybe I’m not from the lucky ones. But here I am still. I don’t like to complain about the constant pain I’m in everyday, because if I’d do that there would be nothing else for me to talk about. I hope a lot of people would understand, that a lot of things you take for guaranteed others can only imagine. This may sound a little crazy but I’m thankful for this disease, although I know it will get worse by the years, it taught me to appreciate EVERYTHING, because life is fucking beautiful after all and it made me the person I’m today. This disease taught me to LIVE BIG to hold on to each moment when I’m feeling good enough to live to the fullest. And on the good days believe me I’m the most SHAMELESS person ever enjoying my life as long as I can.
I
don’t
have the time to feel shame, sadness, anger so
I promise
you will always see me as crazy as
I truly am.

#CrohnsDisease #Crohnsucks #InflammatoryBowelDiseaseIBD #MentalHealth