so proud i made it this far
hey everyone..its been awhile since ive been on the mighty.. I've been going through some very painful events in my life..i mean im really going through it..but im making it..i recently decided to finally leave a 20 year toxic relationship who i thought i loved that i used with..its been hard..
today i am one month and exactly one day clean from cocaine..thanks to my doc putting me on topamax..never thought that med would be so helpful for cocaine dependency but its been a miracle and im loosing weight also..i am starting to love myself more and more each day and taking my time w everything that i do..
i enjoy work now..enjoy life in general..no my life is not perfect but its better!!! it has gotten so much better..i dont have to worry about other females that he has had in his life..dont have to worry about him at all..
its such a relief..im healing in my own little way and it may have taken me to isolate and push people away for me to heal but thats just me..i didn't wanna put my problems onto others and feel like a burden or get judged..i also bought me my own little kitten..a 2 month old black and fluffy female kitten..named her passion bc i was so passionate about getting her..
and she has helped me so much..i have only had her for a week but feel like thats all i need..shes so precious and im stress free..oh its been hell this past month going through cocaine withdrawals but the meds my docs got me on cut out the cravings and now when i microdose i release the held in pain..