Stopworking

My job is unique where I drive trains do first aid and work with police to find persons who are feeling suicidal and made a threat to use our specific train system as a means to take their life. This is my 9th year. Recently the company provided us with a new Mental Health Assessment course which I took last night. It was like looking at myself from both sides of the table. Now I’m second guessing everything. I’ve been having lots of low days and fighting. My immune system is shot and I have many physical symptoms and anxiety attacks tears etc. If I can’t assess myself how can I do my job? #unabletowork #Stopworking #worklifebalance #workstruggles #Anxiety #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD

I’m an RN and it’s part of my identity but I can’t continue putting myself through the stress and physical demands. How many can relate with this dilemma?