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just sat thinking in 11 days I will have made it to the end of 2019, CRAZY to think this because I’ve attempted to take my life a number of times, I’ve cried so much telling myself it will be over soon. I am greatful I survived and I’m learning to live. 2020 I will not let BPD get me and I will live my best life. I hope it’s full of recovery and strength. I hope it’s lacking in self harm and suicidal thoughts. I hope for it to be the best and I hope for it to take my mental health under control. I hope 2020 is the year of getting shit together, not just for me but for everyone who has been strong enough to fight, strong enough to survive and strong enough to share their stories here on #TheMighty. without this platform I would have lost hope. I found a voice I didn’t think I could ever hear, and I found strength in other people on here helping me by sharing their story’s and relating to others. I am not alone. WE are not alone. make 2020 the best year yet! ❤️ #BPD #themightybpd #LetsDoThis #stregth

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Hard to name it. #JustBreathe

I'm a mom of two kids, 25 & 15. I'm a wife to my highschool sweetheart. I'm a #jeepgirl . I'm a gardener. I'm a ... well ... that's a weird one to explain shortly. I was in a near fatal car accident Dec 2009 and broke every part of my body. No spine damage, no brain damage & no internal damage but scratches, bruises, over 20 broken bones and I cut in my stomach (about 5×8?). Many repair surgeries and many times going back for corrective surgery, like my left foot amputation. So ... I'm an #Amputee ... had a right hip replacement... so ... I'm disabled from those other injuries being weak ... so I'm lazy ... pills & physio & exercise & tears & breakdowns & weakness & #Wheelchair & #Prosthetic & #crutches & #Fatigue & #stregth & #anxioty
So how do I lump that? How do I explain in a short description or 'label' it?
I fight to get up each day. It's not depression. It's not I want to die. Its I only have a guarantee of a certain amount of energy if this is a bad day so I'll take it easy now to do more later. But then its a good day and I'm up and doing a few things I've been wanting to get done plus the things I did while up/out. Sometimes its s few good days in a row! Then my body tumbles. My pain starts to spike. My thoughts/mood start to dwindle. I become preoccupied and start crawling back into bed sooner or staying longer because I need to rejuvenate and rest. This happens for months after each revision surgery. Now it's been just 9 years and my last surgery was 8 months ago (the right hip) and I'm still not sure what to tell people. Not supposed to always talk about the accident because no one else wants to hear it. New people like to hear my 'story' but I'm not sure how much to tell so I start small. But people think you are doing great and you are so strong and you are so inspiring and ... call me anytime if you need and I'm so sorry and how can I help and no dont help her she'll get upset and shes so depressed she needs help ... why cant she just think better? Why dont you get out more? Have you tried vitamins? Focus on the positive. Only talk about the good things and your mind will follow. She should find a job and help more. She should be doing physiotherapy and counseling. She has given up and theres nothing anyone can do.
So ... what do I name it all? How do I explain all of this situation in a label? I'm an amputee. I'm disabled. I have chronic pain. I have c-ptsd. I am a mom. I'm a wife. I'm a jeepgirl.
Hey. I'm Terri.

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