I'm going on my 5th day of mania and my 3rd day of a crash. I'm exhausted. And I'm frustrated that there isn't a good treatment. Part of my mind is racing, keeping me awake, while the other part is so worn out from fatigue and PEM. I'm angry at my parents for reproducing together when each of them has a handful of genetic disorders on their own. I got them all and I can't keep up. My body is restless but I don't have the energy to actually do anything productive, just squirm around in bed wishing I could be doing more. I wish I had the skills to make and keep friends so I would have someone to talk to when I feel like this. It feels like it will never end! I just want my life back. I want to be a productive member of society. I want to be out of this effing bed!
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