Today I finally plucked up the courage to see my old foster daughter for the first time since she moved out of my house/home/life.
She was with me for over 10 years as a disabled young child into an adult.
My illnesses became too much for me too cope looking after her anymore and she moved on suddenly (I became very Ill with glandular fever)
I had a breakdown and sort help, but I realise now I didnt deal with my old foster daughter's feelings very well. I just cut her out of my life. I did it as a way to protect myself.
Today I finally saw her. I went really well, I was anxious nervous, OCD had seriously set in and my place was pretty spotless. So I will be suffering later.
She loved her jewelry she had opened Christmas day so had the rest of the family. I hope I have mended some bridges with my sis (she is my foster sis)
she understands but doesnt .

it's so hard to protect yourself whilst suffering from #mental illness and #ChronicPain
#PsoriaticArthritis #trigminalneuralgia #Heartache #HighFunctioningAnxiety #SuicidalIdeation #ChronicDepression