tummyache

Pauley went to work. I was gonna make some chicken... And then I saw the bacon. I made a bacon sandwich. Sorta. I took 2 bites and then took the bacon off the bread. Then I dipped 2 slices of toast in the bacon grease. Now my tummy is very angry at me. I think she's coming home tomorrow morning.

I was feeling really yucky so I took a shower. Now I'm sweating a lot but I'm gonna open the window for a little bit. I'm gonna take some hydroxyzine and try to meditate for a bit.

#tummyache

I'm getting a cortisone injection in my jaw. I've got bad TMJ and we think it's causing my migraines but we don't know for sure. So we're trying an experiment.

My partner is going with me to the appointment. The doctor I'm seeing is her doctor also. He's decided since he's struggling with being paid for his service he's going to charge his patients to have him as their doctor and I can't afford his fee. But he's still going to do my injections and procedures. I just gotta see the other providers for meds refills. So annoying. And I had medical trauma so it was a big deal to find a doctor I could trust. He's been my doctor for about 8 years.

My tummy really hurts. I ate too much. I've got bubble guts again. If bad for me foods are bad for me, why must they be delicious?

I'm sitting with my partner playing online while she tweezes her legs. I suggested we get some gorilla tape and she wasn't exactly onboard. She always shoots down my ideas.

So the injection is tomorrow, Thursday I have therapy, and Friday I'm going on an adventure with my BHH nutritionist. We're going to my favorite donut shop at 9am. I'm gonna treat myself to half a dozen of my favorite donuts. Then we're going to Aldi for groceries. If we have time I want to stop at trader Joe's for some lavender blueberry almond milk so I can make one of my favorite tea. It's a blueberry rooibos tea. I want to introduce my partner to good tea.

Then on Sunday we're going out with my QPP to go to the cookie crawl event. After that I'm hoping to go get bubble tea and lunch. It's supposed to be my birthday party but I didn't get anything for the party. So it's an adventure day with my people. It'll be nice. I didn't get to go to the cider mill this year but the place with the cookies has a store with all of the yummy treats from the mill. So maybe I'll get me some cider donuts!

I feel awful. I've been staying up too late just so I can spend time with her but she spends hours each day plucking her leg hair out. She has horrible OCD and she's on meds for it but clearly it's not working. And when she's not plucking out hair she's busy working on her computer. So I don't get much quality time with her and she never wants to go out. I haven't been out for fun activities in 4 months. I've got cabin fever. I want to go explore my city's downtown.

Pain just spiked to 7. Fun times. My tummy is making horrible scary sounds.

#Relationships #tummyache #adventures

I've been burping up stomach acid for the last 15 minutes. I feel really yucky. My tummy hurts. My head is foggy. I'm gonna eat a Pepto and rest for a while. I'm wrapped up in my blankie like a burrito. One minute I'm cold and then I overheat. Menopause really sucks.

#menopause #tummyache

I pushed myself to make dinner for us both. Just cheesy scrambled eggs. I turned mine into a burrito with hummus and ranch. I also had one mini cucumber. It was pretty yummy.

But

After I ate, my stomach got bad.. I'm super bloated and really uncomfortable. Luckily my tummy is the only thing that hurts right now. I took a Norco 5 and it definitely helped.

I also pushed myself to make a pot of coffee. I wasn't in the mood for coffee all day and that's usually the big sign that I'm dealing with #Depression . Sure it's after 8pm but I need it. It's a 50/50 blend of butterscotch toffee flavored coffee and peanut butter flavored coffee with cupcake flavored syrup and oat milk. It's very yummy.

I need to get tummy meds but right now my CC is maxed out and I only have $150 till the 27th . I need that money for my trip.

Speaking of which... 9 days to go!

#depressoespresso #tummyache