verylonely

Just woke up in excruciating pain. All my fingers trigger locked and have to be unlocked and it is extremely painful to accomplish. I get my infusions at the end of the week, but more importantly I need to find a new place to live. I am a great tenant, but my landlord hates me because I went over her head to get into the apartment building. She has made my life miserable while I am trying to care for my illnesses and disability. I financially cannot afford to move and I don't know what to do. I am extremely close to being homeless and I will not survive on the streets.
It would be easier to just die then to get sicker, lose everything including my apartment.
There are no agencies, organizations or anyone else who cares about me or what happens to me. I don't know what to do and the panic attacks are getting worse. WWhat is the point of trying to get better or do the right thing when everyone around you are knocking you down and waiting to stomp on your beaten body. I am to tired to try anymore. I hurt to much to care anymore. Not a single soul who cares enough to come over and assist me. The world has been extremely cruel to me and I just want my life to be over with. No I won't harm myself, but I do wish the good lord would take me away. There is nobody or nothing left for me anymore. I'm just very tired, in a lot of pain, hungry and panicking. I just woke up and my day hasn't started yet and I sit here in pain worrying about the future and what is going to happen to me.

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