Loneliness

Pauley is out with her mom doing I don't know but I told her not to fight with her. I asked her to stop by the grocery store for some almond milk. I tried eating lunch but my tummy said no. So I'm sipping on some protein coffee and listening to music. Unfortunately my tummy is properly fucked and the pain is at 8. I took my tummy pills but they clearly didn't work. I want to claw my skin off.Pqcqqn aa

Hi, my name is Jcjones26. I'm here because I’m worried, sad, angry, exhausted, stumped, ashamed, lonely, desperate and trying really hard to have a functioning family, when one child’s needs are totally overwhelming all of us.

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #Grief

Hello. I’ve been living with OCD for 10 years and I have social anxiety; I’ve come here to socialise and overcome my loneliness. We can help one another, and I think that’s a lovely thing 😊.

Tbh i gave up on my life 3 yrs ago. I was still striving to live back then. I had a little bit of wants and desires left in me. All my life I just wanted to just fall in love and get married to that person.
I never really got a chance to live my life by my own free will. Whatever decision I took or even thunk of has always been judged or rediculed. Ultimately, I just had to live by the choices made by my mom. I am 27, I thought I would have married to the love of my life and had kids by now. But no, I have close to zero autonomy and I am not even made to feel like a complete adult.
I have no desire or will to live. Nothing in life is making me feel happy or content. It feels like I have completely lost myself. The only time that I ever truly lived was when I was in Bachelors, first, second and third year. The last year everyone did college from home due to covid. Covid took that away from me as well. Since then gradually I became like this. Yes, I did go to the same college for masters, but things weren't tge same. I skilled up but I lost my dream, creativity and passion.
Not a single thing, good enough to wake up to. Just numbness and loneliness. I feel so horrible about myself I self isolate. I don't like meeting people of my age or younger or financially poorer, living a more loving and fulfiling life than me. I wanted to colour my hair, get tattoos, dress uniquely, date people, get married for love, have a career I love, make money to live my life however I want. But now I have 0 desire to make money for luxuries, I only make money for my survival. I don't even have any desire to prove my worth. I am so deeply broken that my emotions are not even working properly. I at least used to feel sad and cry when I was younger. Now, I am writing this with a poker straight face with a heavy heart and pain in the back of my throat at 4:35 am on 27th Aug '26. I couldn't sleep the whole, I am lying on my bed, tried sleeping the whole night but couldn't. I have cried myself to sleep since my childhood days. But now that also feels like a big task.
Hoping for a better life. I just have myself, no one or nothing worth living for currently.

Lonely tonight. My dog is dying, she can't walk and stopped eating. I tried to rage quit my job but apparently did it wrong and ended up part time for awhile. Sad. Lonely. Doctors are recommending another procedure. I am in assitive tech classes and spent past few months learning to use a white cane. I can cross intesections now. I am having a custom bag made for it that has unicorns on it. My test is to walk a few blocks to meet my instructor at a coffee shop this coming Thursday. I am afraid of the outside.

My first post here was 7 y ago. I wrote about how sad and depressed I am, how lonely and isolated I felt. I can’t even believe that is still relevant today. Nothing’s changed. I’m saying life isn’t going to be better because it isn’t going to be. Life isn’t worth it. It’s been like this for the past 7 y, why would it be different in the next 7 y. No one believed me when I said it back then. When are people going to believe me when I say, it’s not gonna get better #Suicide

#Misophonia My 34 year old son suffers from Misophonia. He has been struggling with it for years. We have seeked medical help but have not been able to find any solution. It’s been extremely frustrating. I’m a single mom and I feel like his life is very sad, lonely. He has no siblings. He spends most of the day in his room with his computer. He has lost all his friends because they don’t understand his behavior. I think it frightens them away.! I feel like always having to walk on egg shells in my house. If he’s close by I have to be extra careful and not cause any sounds that might irritate him. If I make one, accidentally, especially a loud one he immediately reacts and feels great pain in his ears.He starts to yell, complaining about the pain. If I accidentally make one by dropping something or banging something he starts scolding me, throwing a tantrum . He , in the past has broken many things in my home. He no longer does that because he realized that doing that only hurts him more. If he is told not to, he gets madder and madder and starts blaming me for everything. He starts usually foul language and even demeans me.
I’m in the process of seeking a Nueralagist to find a possible solution. They require an MRI but he can’t take one because of the loud sound of the machine. We tried it once he freaked out and refused to continue.
I believe the only way it can be done is by having him sedated to take it. That’s where we are now, finding a neuralogist than is willing to do that.
If anyone here has found a good neuralogist to help us, please let me know. Thanks