I have been dealing with Bipolar Depression and other mental challenges for the better part of 20 years. My husband and I are invited to a New Year's Eve party. I am anxious about going. I have been having racing thoughts and I have been having to push through my #social
#Anxiety just to get through this Holiday Season. I am having #PanicAttacks , I don't want my husband to have to go to the party alone.

He has been supportive to a point. He says I can't hide from life. My mental battles manifest physically. My #IrritableBowelSyndrome has flared up. I feel tired and a part of me wants to go with him. The #negativevoices and the negative soundtrack tells me not to go, stay home, stay in my p.j.'s. I don't feel like trying to find something to wear and getting my hair and nails done so I can feel more confident. Dealing with my #MentalIllness is a daily battle. Can I discipline myself to do this 52 week challenge? Should I push myself to go bring in the #NewYear with my loving husband? Can anyone relate?