Tired of trying
I have dealt with depression most my life. It has been more prevalent in my adult years. For the past 4 years I've been unable to work and function in my daily life or take care of my basic needs. I do everything I told, I go to therapy I take my meds I practice my grounding techniques for my cptsd. I spend most of my day in bed unable to find the motivation energy or desire to get out of bed. Making decisions seem to be impossible for me. Things just seem to be multiplying the depression is getting heavier. I also just found out my best friend is moving, my only friend. I just wonder why I should keep trying. I'm tired of just existing with no feelings and no emotions I am just numb to the life around me. I am truly lost.
#major depressive disorder
#CPTSD
#Anxiety
#diabetic
#Crohn 's
#IBS