Last week, I officially became a published author (!!!) - a lifelong goal of mine.
In the middle of my #CPTSD healing journey, i decided to do a very hard thing and write a book about my mental health experience- specifically, writing the advice that early-twenties, trying-to-pretend-i-dont-have-mental-illness-me could have used years ago.
My book is available on Amazon now - it’s called “Dear Me, It’s You” :)
It is a collection of letters from me right now - at 27 - to me back then: when I was paralyzed in fear between a failing (and emotionally abusive) marriage and my own impending mental health crisis.
I would be honored to share my story with you 🖤
But before I do, let me give you some more context:
- I was a passenger in an auto accident in 2008, where I suffered a #TBI and numerous physical injuries. My boyfriend passed away in the wreck along with another young man. I was later diagnosed with #PTSD .
- In 2012, I married a high school sweetheart but it became clear early on that the life I had chosen for myself wasn’t fitting me: it was just never going to look as nice as it did on the hanger.
Or, it just wasn’t going to ever look comfortable enough to justify how uncomfortable it was.
Either way, I had reached a point where I knew, with crushing clarity, that my marriage was contributing to my deteriorating mental health.
So, I left. And i had no clue what I was doing - I just hoped I could figure it out.
Fast forward a cool 5 years later, and I think I didn’t do too bad of a job - but I found myself wishing that someone - anyone - could travel back in time to let early-twenties me know all of the juicy stuff THEN, so she could arrive to the happier* place faster than I had.
After about 10 seconds, I admitted the obvious fact that it isn’t possible.. in THIS timeline! ;)
I decided to write a few letters and see if they could stand up on their own as decent advice for alternate timeline me- putting it out there in hopes that it finds her, or any other fledgeling human trying to navigate treacherous waters.
Reparenting, yall. I’m doing it out loud. Wish me luck.
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