Acceptance of longer-term mental health problems
I'm pretty new to this site. I'm a mid-20s guy grappling with how long I'm going to have to deal with MH issues. I've been having MH problems for more than half my life. I've tried a lot of med combos, most don't work, but one works really good and I've been on and off that for the past two years. A close relative said that she's tried coming off meds over and over again but that depression always comes back whenever she does. I've noticed the same thing with me. Once I come off this combo, I fall back into the same hole of overdrinking, suicidal thoughts, hurting people I love in those moments, feeling like crap 24/7, no motivation, angry all the time, etc. I don't want that anymore. I think I might need meds forever but I don't know and that thought still makes me uneasy.
I like who I am when I'm on this med combo. I don't overdrink. I don't overreact. I don't get road rage anymore. I don't have the 24/7 negative thoughts. I can actually laugh and I'm generally upbeat and positive. It's night and day. I've gained some weight but in light of my most recent crisis point, I think being overweight is better than dead and hurting the people in my life. Plus now that my mind is right, I can do stuff to counteract that weight side effect, right?
Any tips on how to accept that this is probably going to be a longer-term thing I gotta take meds for? Any tips on how to manage weight while on the meds? I got off this combo last time because of weight but if there's a way to manage that side effect then I want to try that. #Depression #Advice #MentalHealth