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I would like to explore starting a habit of gentle movement inside at home. I have a currently undiagnosed condition that is causing swelling and mild pain in my knees, so I do have some limitations physically. Mentally and emotionally I find intentional exercise very difficult because it makes me focus on my body which I prefer to dissociate from. I have been doing body-based and somatic therapy for nearly a year now, though, and some of the panic when I connect to my body is subsiding, so I think it is a good time to start a routine like this. I don't know where to start, though, and thought I would ask if anyone has a recommendation. Thank you in advance!

#recommendation #Advice #Yoga #Stretching #Workout #Exercise #movement #body #MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #Trauma #SexualAssault #Undiagnosed

One other thing: there is swearing in this. If that's not for you, please move on.

I wanna scream it hurts so bad right now. I wanna just fade away. Psychiatrist/counseling office says they support me but last week my counselor outright ignored a trigger so I told him I can no longer work with him. He also said he only does 12 sessions but gave me more. Excuse my language but how the fuck can anyone work through anything in 12 sessions? Especially when someone doesn't trust counselors? Dude outright said it's surprising I even opened up to him and then pulls this shit. Today I'm in extreme pain and mental health is declining and last week the my psychiatrists MA said they can't support me all the time, use the crisis line. Well news flash the crisis line has made me worse and has hurt me, I've called back once before a call back sobbing and the lady asks "Why did you call back early?" As I was sobbing. So yeah call a line that only gives a fuck if you're actively suicidal and willing to go to the hospital. Which I've explained to them.
Oh and hospitals? If you want to hear extreme trauma, I'll inform you of my psych ward stay last year which my providers know about. My mom also knows and threatened to send me back to the same place. Well news flash mother you don't have power of attorney, all you can get is cops to do a wellness check who frankly won't do anything unless there's a danger, and I can get my psychiatrist to vouch I'm fine with your so called "threat" you think I did. Well guess what? That wasn't a threat at all or some stupid shit like that. I've asked people and they're confused. And I've never been a daughter to you? Well guess what you've never been a mom because I lost my mom when grandma died too because you've never been one.
Oh and saying shit when I ask for support like "oh what do you want me to say go...." I'm not going to say the rest before I bet people can guess.
Then you text to me say goodnight nightly like nothing is wrong. Like you did nothing. You even said you have no responsibility for anything. You even said you're confused as to how you're responsible. Remember the 6yrs of lawsuits you put me through when I begged crying not to do them against the man who molested and ****** me? Well that caused 6 additional years of trauma. And you said I had to do it for you and dad because you were hurt too. Well what about me? The one who lived through that shit? The one was relentlessly attacked by attorneys? The one who blames themselves still because you put blame on me by saying I gave you PTSD? When I wouldn't even wish this shit on him. Why am I the only one at fault here? WHY? Because you can't understand how a 15-16yo can be manipulated and groomed by a 50yo to hate their parents? Because you can't understand how it was traumatic? Well guess what I said no a couple times and learned fast it wouldn't go my way. I did say yes to a lot of things and blame myself to this day. 13yrs later.
Then to add the cherry on top, my brother had a fucked childhood cause of me. He told me he witnessed all the arguments and had to see that. My mom told me some lady yelled at them in a store due to what happened with that man or something I said and he was there. He went to his school counselor crying why his sister was always mad at the family. And worse. Yeah I know I fucked his childhood thanks for the reminder.

If anyone read all this, thanks and I apologize if it was triggering. I tried my best to warn people. I am struggling but trying my best and that's all I got right now. There is more to what my parents have said and done. I don't know how to handle it anymore or handle people defending them. This also doesn't cover the stuff I've been through with doctors the past few weeks or a lot of other stuff that has happened. It's been hell. My counselor seriously didn't think there'd be an emergency last Monday, and over a week later hell has just gotten a lot warmer, between the pain getting extremely worse, my parents and other things. I think I better just settle in and accept it by now. As a song from Bring Me The Horizon says: Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in.

#CPTSD #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #Autism #Autistic #PanicDisorder #toxicparents #SexualAbuse #SuicidalThoughts #Fibromyalgia #CFS #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #ChronicFatigue #EmotionalAbuse #Advice #help #Arthritis #MedicalTrauma #counselors #SexualTrauma #ChidlhoodTrauma

My dad makes too much money to qualify for at home care assistance for my mom, but not enough money to be able to afford to hire someone. With working 2 jobs and having to come home every break to help my mom , he experiences major caregiver burnout. Does anyone know of any resources I can look into to help him out?

So I went to Golden Corral and now I regret going. I feel like death right now. Everything just hurts, I'm nauseous, my head hurts, and I argh. I'm back where I was yesterday. #SuicidalIdeation #SuicidalThoughts #ChronicPain #ChronicDepression #CPTSD #Advice

My mom just has X-rays taken of her shoulders because they have been causing extreme pain in her arms. The doctors basically said her shoulders are so bad from arthritis that she’d need to have replacement surgery. The recovery stage involves not leaning on her shoulders so they told her that she does not qualify to get surgery because she is chair bound. In other words she is going to have to live with the pain for the rest of her life. Has anyone experienced this before? I just find it crazy that in today’s world, they haven’t figured out a way to be inclusive when it comes to helping people like my mom. Anyone have any thoughts or any advice on where to go from here?

I'm about done lately. All the month I moved I had the CFS, Costochondritis and Fibromyalgia flaring to the point I went to the ER. They did nothing since it wasn't deemed an emergency. I don't have a PCP because they've treated me badly and basically told me it's in my head. My parents are making things worse and treating me like an idiot (I do not live with them). They told me I have to be nice to them because they're my parents. They're not nice to me. I rely on them for money or I'd be homeless. They don't understand chronic illness or mental health at all and make things worse. They are cruel.
The whole month of the move I was flaring and in extreme amounts of pain. I had one friend and two days her other friend helping and I couldn't keep pushing myself. I'm getting a cleaning fee and my apartment complex is trying to add on other fees. My parents are going to be pissed. I want to cry. I want to die. I'm talking with my psychiatrist tomorrow morning and my counselor Friday. I just don't know if I can make it that long. My cat is my anchor right now.
Any kind words or advice would be appreciated.
#Advice #Autism #SuicidalIdeation #Selfharm #Selfhate #Selfblame #Arthritis #Spoonie #ChronicFatigueSyndrome #ChronicIllness #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #ChronicFatigue

I was finally diagnosed with Lupus Nephritis last year after many hurdles and struggles so I am FINALLY on the medications I need to help my kidneys improve, including prednisone but now I'm dealing with some side effects from prednisone that I find difficult to manage. if anyone has any suggestions at all for the problems below, I'd really appreciate any help at all!!!

I love to do my make up and hair but my skin has become very greasy and sensitive so I struggle to use foundation of any kind and it never lasts!

My hair is very hard to manage due to being extremely greasy no matter how much I wash it or the products I use. I'm also missing all the hair on the top of my head.

I usually like to dress nice when I have the energy, but I have severe weight fluctuations and swelling, I don't always have the resources to go buy new clothes with every change. #Lupus #LupusNephritis #ChronicIllness #lupuslife #prednisonesideeffects #medicationsideeffects #chronicillnesslife #weightgain #physicalchange #adviseplease #adviseme #Advice

I’m on a pretty low dose of 20mg cipralex but going up to 40mg I think it’s making me extra anxious. Hope it’s okay to talk about meds here.

Just wanted tips for when it first makes you extra anxious. Or your experience with meds.

If you feel comfortable sharing if you do take meds what dose you are on or what you find helps you even if you don’t take meds, but you don’t want to share that’s perfectly okay
Thanks Everyone #meds #Medication #Dose #dosage #heal #Pain #Hope #Advice #yourexperience #coping #Tips #tryingtobehopeful #adjustjng #change

Has anyone lived alone with c-ptsd and how do you find it compared to living with roommates? #CPTSD #PTSD #Anxiety #Advice

When you have to try to ignore hurtful comments, or verbal abuse, I can’t live independently sadly for now, though I love them it’s a hard dynamic.
Thanks #Abuse #Family #Stress #Holidays #verbal #Depression #hurt #hardtimes #Advice