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Hi I just prayed to a lady I met online , I am not sure what lead me to it aside from sadness that she has made a life while we chatted and no longer needs me to chat which all it was but it was every night for 2 years before it slowed down then a few times a week for 3 more years I thought we were going to met an have a child because she asked if I was interested and I was , but two weeks ago I found out she had a child while we were chatting around the two year mark when the chatting slowed down . I today told her I was going to start talking to other people because she seems to busy and don’t seem into me and like an hour later she posted a video having sex asking how’s the camera angle look on this . Well I told her it looked really good to be with her . And now I’m hurt that the video was a response to my remark of going to start talking to others . I also got to mention that when she asked if I wanted a child o got happy and told her about the trauma in my child hood and it reminded me of things that caused what I think was hyper sexuality and I started to talk about sex and that’s when things went wrong with our chat I just didn’t know she went to do it instead of talk to me about it . I’m so hurt that I did that and idk what to do now . And so a while ago I texted her a prayer 🙏 me praying to her explaining and asking for forgiveness for asking about sex when we chatted because I feel it’s why she went to go do that . I M not sure if all this makes sense but I’m Sorry I regret ruining what she was after with me . I’m emotionally hurt at the moment and idk how to deal with it much less what to do ? Some came here to nark on my stupidity that made me remember because I was happy and comfortable telling her about it so we could know each other it royally failed an I lost her . Am I apologize about the bad punctuation I’m currently studying for a ged and well I’m learning that
Can you help ? Do you know any thoughts words that might help me understand so I can let it go ? I already lost her I just don’t want to stay feeling like I’m missing the love & Heart she made me feel . This is hurtful for me . And I forgot to mention that when I think of sex it catches my attention so I forget about the stuff that hurts me and I think it’s why I did that because I told her everything pretty much and I remembered it all talking about it so I think the hyper sexless me hiding an trying to forget all that stuff I talked about that stayed fresh in my mind after that it ruined me. God I’m so sorry I feel Regret that I told her . #Trauma #PTSD #Depression #PTSD #Sadness #Prayer #disappointment #ADHD #Advice #relationship

Hello, in online i always feel like that i want to be loved or have a partner or someone that does care to me, i have no idea why but when i try to get a kind one or some relation i always fail and that feeling gets me lonely or that no one loves me or likes me or i am the worst, so yeah i am very bad and i have anxiety when people choose someone else to like not me or they're taken or they get the care they wanted or they basically don't care, i always expect people to treat me well and gentle instead even by advice they just being mean or they put the blame to me, i feel i am a bad person that no one likes

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When I started reading stories here, I realized how powerful shared experiences can be.

So many of you haveI thought… why don't we help each other a little

Let's share a small piece of advice — something that hel

It doesn't have to be perfect or big. Sometimes the simplest things mean

My advice:

On hard days, I stopped forcing myself to “be strong” all the time.I learned that allowing myself to rest, cry, and feel tired without guilt is also a form of strength. Sometimes just admitting that today is heavy is the

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Well... I have some questions about antisocial personality disorder. I believe that the best answer to such questions is yourself, but... yeah, there are some questions

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I was diagnosed 10 years ago with BPD, but however I was not in a situation where I could research the diagnosis. I about 7 years ago stopped doing heroin. which I had used for so long to cover up and deal with any pain I was feeling. so about 5 years ago I started having the symptoms and actually dealing with my BPD. I did not realize what I was going through beforehand because I never had a chance to look into what BPD was. I was diagnosed at 7 years old as a major depressant, then I was diagnosed at 13 with schizoaffective disorder and bipolar. I never understood why I seem different then the people I knew who had these disorders. I didn't understand my own thought pattern, I didn't understand why I was always afraid of not knowing what my day held or where my significant other was. I always just knew that it was an insecurity of mine. I didn't know why things were the way they were. so 7 years ago when I came off of Heroin and I started dealing with things, I guess this disorder decided to take a major grip on my life. it's hard for me right now to deal with my day-to-day life because I am 39 years old, I am trying to figure out why I have these feelings of emptiness, feelings of worthlessness, always wondering why I feel like I hate my life but then there's nothing in my life to hate. I have a roof over my head, I have a husband who loves me and puts up with this bullshit of a mental disorder, I have a dog that I'm training to be a service dog so what does that leave to hate. it seems like I'm a rude, mean, inconsiderate little asshole. I don't know how to change it or where to get help. I don't want to be the person I am. I don't know how to deal with what's going on or what to even call what's going on. I'm asking the community for any insight or advise you all can give. I have been trying to get into therapy and DBT however I haven't been able to because I'm on Medicaid. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Advice

I have been having extreme delusions around my sister's boyfriend and his thoughts of me...these seem to be in my head yet I have thought broadcasting so my thoughts are out loud to the point where people can hear me sometimes..anyways it's come to the point where I either write him off or continue trying to reason with him I talked to my therapist about it but did not really get a straight answer..at this point so far I have let my sister know that I want nothing to do with her boyfriend and she has kindly respected that, but sometimes he is well mostly all of my delusion lately have something to do with him and how he wants to teach me a lesson because he doesn't agree with my past...but at what point is enough..because he doesn't listen when I say I am triggered being in recovery this is very difficult..does anybody have any advice?

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How do you help someone suicidal ?
I know someone who is clearly going through PTSD, BPD split, and who has been very open about how depressed and suicidal they have been feeling.

They don’t want to go to a hospital, nor call their mom (because their mom suffers from fibromyalgia and doesn’t want to effect her) even though this person’s mom is on their safety plan.

I this case
I believe I am a trigger for them
Not me me but the idea of events that happed that I was there for

I hope that makes sense

I have reached out to one of their best friends to see if she could come be there for this person

I’m not fully concerned of this person’s safety because I am with them now
But and definitely concerned if the suicidal feelings get bigger for them

#BipolarDepression #Depression #Split #Advice #Caregiving

I want to be a gentle supportive partner
He’s currently experiencing psychosis symptoms
I’ve seen him go through it before and it was in and out of the hospital for 1-2 months
this time it’s less suicidal tendencies which is amazing and I’m grateful to know he’s safe
But some of his actions and some of the things he’s saying to me are exstremly inconsiderate and hurtful
Examples he downloaded a dating app and then promised me he’d never cheat on me and has been telling me that his ex is meant to be in his life still (something like that)

How would you feel?
I’m genuinely asking anyone who reads this because personally
I feel disrespected and angry and just adding to the depression I’m already struggling with

I know that he is not himself right now
But it doesn’t make things hurt less
I’ve been trying to keep my cool and be here for him

But I have no idea what to do
The implosiveness is hard to keep up with
Constant cleaning and making sure nothing is set in fire

There has been so much age regression and I am lost on what I’m supposed to do

Any insight or advice is appreciated !

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Looking for support. My partner has BPD and I struggle with depression and anxiety. How do I manage my own depression when my partner splits on me? Example: I am at my partner’s parents house and my partner is at our apartment getting our cat, he called me very angry because our cat is giving him a hard time getting out of the house with him. During the 2 minute call he expressed how annoyed and frustrated he is and was swearing and loosing his cool. I am obviously unable to help because I am not there. Is there anything I can say to him to be supportive? #BDD #bpdrelationship #Depression #Advice