embarrasing

The FedEx person sent back my package! I’m upset because it was supposed to be my son’s b-day present and now I have nothing to give him and no money to get him something else until the company I ordered it from refunds my money. Most people would feel bad, but get over it. Not me. I went for a drive, pulled into an empty parking lot and screamed until my voice gave out and my face and hands were numb. Felt a little better and went home. At least I didn’t loose it I front of my kid again.

I'm off one of my depression meds right now because I waited too long to call the doctor for a new set of refills. Needless to say, I feel like crap emotionally and all I want to do is sleep, but that's not practical.
I ran into a woman I know from church today while getting groceries, and she asked how I was. I don't like to lie, so I told her I was tired and depressed, but I also didn't want her to worry about or pity me, so I tried to say it pleasantly. Except I overdid it and told her I was depressed with a big fake smile and in a giddy sounding voice. And now I feel like a weirdo. And I'll see her again tomorrow. #fml #Pretendingtobefine #Depression #Depressionmeds #embarrasing #ChronicDepression #ClinicalDepression

#MightyTogether I spent the entire day going to appointment after appointment and I had to use my #gps to walk. Just walk! Through the BART/Subway and to find my office in the Embarcadero building.
I grew up here in San Francisco, I know my way around, apparently not.
That was humiliating plus the limping. I actually wished I had a #Wheelchair .
Limping and walking zigzag, another embarrassing feeling.
I felt like people were looking at me.
Although, most people were really nice and held doors for me etc...
I just want my body & brain back.